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another day..another week..another month has passed by.
as soon as i hit the pillow on my bed i feel tired and my face just feels so tired like its been working extra hard to hide the real emotions i hide behind my smiling face.
the saying that comes to mind each time repeats itself
"Sick of Crying, Tired of Trying, Yeah Im Smiling But Inside Im Dying"
i feel it is so true...
i think it is now apart of my life.
though sometimes i feel as though my smile is real..
when i see my friends, and when i listen to my music.
its hard to not put on a smile for both of them...
but sometimes though i hate to admit it the pain will come from my friends though it is rare.
but i now know for a fact that the pain i am feeling right now is due to a friend.. not in a bad way..not only that but i feel lost and confused.
sad and angered i wish it would all just go away but i know it wont be easy because nothing ever is...