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I remember that day..Until now, I realize that I really did love him at that moment and I couldnt break up with him. But you know he broke up with me. Remember the end of sixth grade? He asked me out again and I said no? He must have been real clung onto me even when he said he loved me and asked if I still had feelings for him. I lied that day when he cried. It was the most saddest thing a guy could do. I still did have feelings for him, but I couldnt come clean. I didnt want to disappoint Sophia because we promised we would be boyfriend-free those last weeks of elementary school and last those last memories by having fun and not getting caught up in boy drama. But I should have talked to him alone about it. It was a really weird feeling when I still liked him and after he broke up with me. When he broke up with me, I felt like my world was gone and didnt care about anything in the world. I felt so down. Whenever I saw him or he looked at me, I always looked the other way, not to show my face. After I got over him, I still liked him or even loved him. I never wanted to go out, but be like somebody who has a crush and just be close-close friends. I miss him a lot since that day we graduated sixth grade. I wish to see all you guys on a special occasion or something.
I also want to tell you something I found out during sixth grade. I know that you liked Shawn, too. I was shocked, but didnt really care because you either still liked Troix or you were still obsessed over Jaaron. I should also tell you that Jaaron liked me, too, but i was his number four on his list. I couldnt believe that either, but he didnt want Shawn know or he'll get mad. He was really smart about that, though. He also tried not to like me, too. Im coming clean with what I found out in sixth grade.
I love youh guys forever and ever...<3