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OMG! Yuugao is going to be our mentor! eeeekkk! So awsome! We are a real squad now! Well technically, we need to pass our finals to become a squad, but that's a 110% chance. Even (sadly the weakest amongst our group) was significantly stronger than everyone else participating in the final exams. So how this works, there are 2 phases:
1.) We are set in squads of three and are set to spar with a random three person squad. We don't have help from our mentors, but they are watching and the judges are judging.
Something Yuugao said was funny to me. He looked somewhat worried. "Don't worry, we are going to pass for sure." I said. "I'm not worried about you passing, I'm worried about the poor kids you have to fight." I looked at him puzzled. Did he already see who we would fight?
"Let's just say, you guys hate the skin on the backs of these guys, I'm afraid you guys are going to seriously hurt them, if not kill them if you forget to hold back 60% of your power."
I giggled. I knew exactly who he was talking about and I was already way too excited to land a solid fist into all of their faces...I am so pumped for this exam.
It figures that the academy head would pit us against them, he knew we had a hatred of each other...fuel for the fire...excitement.
 Dark Ninja Chik · Fri Oct 09, 2009 @ 04:48pm · 0 Comments |
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Finals are here! OMG! I know I should have left this journal at home, but I knew I would want to write like every five minutes! It's so crowded here! Recruiters and Lords from other lands are here! The finals are held in an areana that is swarming and buzzing with people! It's so amazing. There are more people in this areana than actually live here in the town, people from all over the Water lands and other lands!
Kumori didn't sleep a wink last night, but Hollow showed me that he's about 25% stronger than any of his adversaries would be, including Makiba (a smaller percentage gap though), but not me. So I'm not too worried about him, he'll pass.
Oh! you must be wondering how these finals work! Yeah, they're not like the normal written exams or even Assesment tests. No, this is much different. Today we will be fighting. Yes, knocking the lights outa our mentors! I don't want to fight Yuugao, but it would be so awsome if Makiba, Kumori, and I could really show him what we're made of.
Yuugao got perission to make us a squad, but I don't know if he will be our mentor. Hopefully so, I would hate to kill any other mentor. Yuugao is the only one here strong enough to actually give us a real challege (we never tell anyone that tho wink
Dark Ninja Chik · Fri Oct 09, 2009 @ 04:35pm · 0 Comments |
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Ok, I know this is like the 2nd or maybe even 3rd time I wrote in today, but so much has happened. Finals are tomorrow, graduation from the SW academy where we will become Cadets, the next level up.
Makiba and I have found a new spark between our relationship. We havent had a chance to talk since our first kiss...ANYWAY, I hope we can talk about it after we graduate and become Cadets. We will be able to do real mission, together! Only thing is, how will this work? Isn't it wrong for a brother and sister to like, like each other? Well, we aren't actually siblings. More like, he was adopted. That's not bad is it? I don't think so. Look at me trying to justify this...I will talk about it with Makiba. He will know. He always knows.
Which reminded me, "Why had you hid my own feelings from me, Hollow?" I searched within myself for her. Funny, she had done some decorating in my head, or rather, my imagination, whichever makes more sense to you (as if anything about me makes sense lol).
Anyway, I walked around the now foreign place inside my head. The maze of my imagination was even hard for me to solve, and Hollow's "redecorating" only made it harder to find her.
Whenever I go into one of these "inner searches" my body is probably sitting somewhere stiff as a rock in deep deep concentration, but it feels almost effortless to me.
I found her in her "house". She had moved. It took me a while to find the new location. I knocked on the door, then remembered that this was my mind, so I just phased through the door. Hollow was upstairs in her bed, bundled under blankets. She wasn't in her true form (which I greatly apreciated) but was in the form of a petite brunette woman, gorgeously shaped, a real beauty. I think this was her human form before she became 'Hollow' but it wasn't likely that such and old akki remembered her human form. Hollow was more than 6,000 years old!
"So why did you hide it from me, my own feelings?" I asked her. She was silent. "I'll tell you tomorrow. "What exactly is going to happen tomorrow? Kumori is freakin his head off and you are acting like a recluse...sooooo not YOU!" "You will find out tomorrow, I'm...sorry. I don't want to see you so hurt." I wanted to ask her more, but she melted through her blankets and dissapeared. That was all I was getting from her until tomorrow, so I emerged from inside my self.
Yup, that's how my 1:00am has been spent. Now it's really late, or shall I say early? Anyway, goodnight world. Tomorrow is finally finals! Well today actually.
Dark Ninja Chik · Fri Oct 09, 2009 @ 04:08pm · 0 Comments |
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Ok, I read back over all my old journal entries and realized that my story is complex and (especially if you just drop in reading without seeing the past entries) you can get easily confused. So, here is a brief recap over everything that has happended in the last 10 years.
My name is Hitogoe Akkichi. My uncle, Yuugao Akkichi, and my little brother, Kumori Akkichi, are the only suvivors of a brutal attack on our lands. My father, Lord of the Thunder Lands as well as my mother and the rest of my clan were murded when I was only 4 (Kumori a year younger). Yuugao, only 15 at the time, barely escaped with us.
Half dead, the three of us journeyed for weeks. I caught an infection and was dying. Yuugao saved a woman's life and that of her son's. The woman's name was Kaen (15) and her son was named Makiba (Yes, she was raped at a very young age. Also, now you know that Hitogoe and Makiba are not blood siblings so they are not commiting incest when they fall in love).
Anyway, Kaen and Makiba, in turn, save our lives. I am permanantly blind due to my infection, but that has never stopped me from becoming a Shadow Walker. Now, I have mentioned that I have this sonar-like hearing, so (just like a bat) I can hear where everything is to the point that it is more like seeing through the eyes of a hawk (only color blind) in a way. This abillity as well as many others is credited to Hollow, my inner akki (demon). I discovered her within me after my family was murdered.
Ok, so what's a Shadow Walker (SW)? We are an elite group of humans who are able to "walk amongst the shadows". Fits, right? Well our job is to to take good akki to the right place in the spirit realm, but more importantlly, put the bad akki in their place! We do so by the use of our ki weapons--weapons formed from our life ki. Each weapon is somewhat unique to each person (as you will find out later, mines is REALLY special wink
Ok, ten years into the future, I can read minds (and will later learn to put thoughts into people's heads) and Kumori has dreams of the future. He's really goin berserk cause he can't sleep b/c we think the future is too... extreem to be seen. Anyway, Makiba has learned to harness the strange ability to control water and ice, a trait passed down from his rapist father.
Ok, that's about it for the recap for now. Back to my life!
Dark Ninja Chik · Fri Oct 09, 2009 @ 03:50pm · 0 Comments |
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Tomorrow is finals. Makiba took me to watch the sunset. We were alone. He spoke first, just as the base of the red sun touched the horizon. "Hitogoe...I want to tell you something..." He stumbled over words, his heart pounded in his chest. My sonar-like hearing could feel the blood as it rushed and pulsated through his veins, filling his cheeks. I remember this from back when I had sight. A boy and a girl, lovers, cheeks flushing a bright rosey red. I couldn't connect it to what was happening here though. Was it cloudiness again? He kept trying to tell me something, but I couldn't understand. Makiba has never had trouble talking to me. We were very close. So why did he studder and sweat now? It confused me. I told him that even if what he was making his words as obvious as day, he would have to slap me with it before the clouds of my mind cleared enough to understand. He seemed to realize what he needed to do to make me understand. I sat quietly. The top of the sun grazed the horizon, its light disapearing behind it. I leaned my head on Makiba's shoulder, as I usually did after the sun had set. And as usual, he began to softly stroke my hair. I never knew why I liked it when he did, all I knew was that I always liked it when he went lower, to my cheek, then my neck, always disapointed when he stopped. Maybe Hollow hid the reason I liked it from me as well as the reason why Makiba would stroke me in such a way. His hand glid gently along my neck, I could feel Hollow stirring. She must have know what it was Makiba was going to do to reveal to me what he was trying to say. Almost like she had given up, she cleared the clouds that had always closed in to a thick haze at moments like this. But she went farther, she unfogged all of my memories of moments such as this, Makiba and me, together, alone. Memories I had forgotten or never noticed, Makiba's gaze constantly on my face; the way he smiled at me, so gentle and caring; the way he held me during the night when I was afraid of the storm, softly, protecting, cradling me in his broad bosom; how he held me long and close as we lay there. Everything became clear. Before I could even react to the sudden realization of what he had been trying to tell me all along, his finger was under my chin, his lips pressed gently on mine. My eyes fluttered when emptiness grew between my lips and his. I wanted to fill the gap that had come between us, the tiny gap. I could feel his breath breathing heavily on my lips. I wanted so badly to feel his soft lips gently gliding across mine again. "I understand," was all I could get out in my heavy breaths "And?" was all he could get through his. "How will we...we are brother and sister..." his finger shushed me mid sentence. "we can figure that out later..." he whispered. I hadn't let him finish his sentence before I had pressed my lips back onto his. How long had I felt this way? How long had Hollow supressed these feelings, hid them from me? What were here reasons? Why did she hide him from me? I tear drop escaped my unconcious questions. An apology, Hollow's tear. A regret for hiding my feelings from me. Makiba was the one who pulled away. Yuugao was coming. During our kiss, I was completely disconected from my senses. My hearing, that would have heard Yuugao a mile away, hadn't heard him only a few feet away. We went back home. I could hear Makiba's thoughts (an ability I had learned shortly after learning of Hollow's presence within me after the murder of my clan) happily humming a familiar tune. He had finally made me see him how he saw me, how I would have seen him if Hollow hadn't have interfered. We both walked home, sending silent love notes through our smiles and thoughts. We didnt get to talk again that night. Tomorrow is finals...my skies are finally clear. I hope that everything will be as clear and light hearted as I feel tonight.
Dark Ninja Chik · Mon Oct 05, 2009 @ 05:49pm · 0 Comments |
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I awoke early today. Tomorrow is finals. She woke me. She had to tell me something. Her name. She has always told me that names are for those who are absent and need to be addressed in their absence. Therefore, she has never told me her name, or rather, she never had one. However, today, this strange day before finals. She woke me especially to tell me her name. "My name is Hollow. It is better translated from the Akki tongue as 'empty soul' but just call me Hollow." I had not heard her speak for almost a week, and when she does speak, she tells me her name and falls swiftly back into silence. Was she planning on 'being absent'? I have no clue what is going on. Kumori is not sleeping, I'm haveing weird dreams, Hollow is silent, and even stranger, she told me her name. Makiba has noticed my worrying. He wants to take me to watch the sunset alone this afternoon. I felt a hint of implication in the word 'alone', but as usual, the obvious was clouded, so I ignored it and agreed to meet him. Everyone else was either to busy preparing for finals or trying to dream the future to go with me, so I am delighted to have his company.
One more thing, Hallow did speak once more today before drifting back into silence... "You had better remember the names of all you hold dear..." I reminded her of her comment that names are for the absent, but she remained silent. What did she mean by that? I'm not sure. I'll ask her whenever she awakes from her depression.
Dark Ninja Chik · Mon Oct 05, 2009 @ 04:53pm · 0 Comments |
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Kumori has been upset. He is a telopath. In short, he dreams the future. We think that his dreams are subjective, but she thinks otherwise. My akki believes that we are fools for believing such things. She obviously has a negative view on humans. Anyway, finals are in 2 days and Kumori hasn't been able to sleep. He thinks that maybe something too drastic to see in the future is blocking his sleep. He looks at me with weary eyes before reclosing them and failing hopelessly to fall asleep. Maybe this is what she is so reclusive about. I have been uneasy as well. My dreams are of me in foreign lands. I am a dancer, thats a good thing though, I love to dance; however, I feel alone. In my dreams I am lonely. I have known love and been heartbroken in my dreams, something I have yet to experience in reality. I sometimes wonder if I am somewhat telopathic. I did dream of the muder of my clan, and so did Kumori. But my dream was a lot less vivid. Kumori described his in much greater detail. Perhaps I am somewhat telopathic, or maybe, maybe she has been clouding my dreams. We are all worried about the future. I may or may not be telopathic, but Kumori is. I told him that instead of trying to fall asleep to see the future, maybe he needs to learn to daydream.
Dark Ninja Chik · Mon Oct 05, 2009 @ 04:31pm · 0 Comments |
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With her or my inner akki (demon) acting all strange and reclusive, I can finally think clearly and on my own. She usually hides things she doesn't like from me. Some things may be obvious as day, but if she doesn't want me to see or rather (given my blindness) hear things, then I simply cannot hear them. However, now that she is...occupied, I see things I havn't noticed. For instance, I had not noticed how much stronger I was than Makiba and Kumori, and even Yuugao. I always considered my brothers much stronger than I, and I never once dreamed of being stronger than Yuugao, yet here I am, stronger than everyone I know. How long have I been this powerful? How long has she hid this from me? Or, in another instance, I've noticed that Makiba has been acting weird. I constantly notice him staring at me during class, or how when I fall asleep on his shoulder after watching the sunset together under willow tree by the falls, how he strokes my hair, my cheek, my neck...then he stops and blood rushes to his face. I can hear his heart rate increase. What does it all mean. She may be distracted, but she is obviously still clouding my thoughts about Makiba. Well, he will just have to make himself more obvious to make me understand. Something so extreme that no amount of cloudiness can cover it.
Dark Ninja Chik · Mon Oct 05, 2009 @ 04:02pm · 0 Comments |
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I've been feeling strange lately. Or rather she has been feeling strange. She has been uneasy lately, like something is coming, but she blocks her thoughts from me harder than she ever has. I've tried to get around her block, unsuccessfully. I just plan on graduating soon, so I'm not worried about her petty issues.
Dark Ninja Chik · Mon Oct 05, 2009 @ 03:49pm · 0 Comments |
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Finals are in a few weeks. At 14 Makiba and I will graduate SW academy and become Cadets. Kumori will graduate as well. Hopefully Yuugao's permision to be our squad leader will be accepted. I would like to have my family as my squad. People say that it will be a bad thing, that our love for each other will interfere with our completion of our missions. I tell them that our bond is what connects us and makes us the perfect squadron.
Dark Ninja Chik · Mon Oct 05, 2009 @ 03:48pm · 0 Comments |
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Its been 10 years since the death of my clan. Since then, my family has grown. aside from my surviving uncle, Yuugao, and my little brother, Kumori, there have been 3 new additions to my broken family. Makiba and his mother kaen. we met them only weeks after the incident. Makiba is 14, my age (Kumori is a year under us; however, his skill level matches ours). Kaen is older, about Yuugao's age. Anyway, a few years ago, Yuugao and Kaen married. Makiba became our brother. We have a new little brother now. His name is Ame. He is excelling at an exceptional rate in SW (shadow walker) academy. Kaen is currently pregnant with another child, but we have a few months before then. I would like to say I am complete, but that would only be half true. By half, I mean my inner akki. She has dwelt in my probably since my birth; however, I was only aware of her presence after the incident 10 years ago. I can hear her voice now, speaking to me. She is the one who is incomplete. I share her emptiness. She is alone. I am alone.
Dark Ninja Chik · Mon Oct 05, 2009 @ 03:42pm · 0 Comments |
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