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Right, so I officially love my school!! Today we went to a competition called ENGLISH QUEST and it was so much fun. Everyone had tons of fun and we were all so supportive of each other. We were like 5 year olds who were on a sugar high and at the zoo for the first time. Everyone did an absolutely AMAZING!!! WAAGGGHHHH YAY I AM SO HAPPY!!

I love English and I absolutely love acting art and just theater in general.

I know no one really even ever reads these but I just feel like typing this.

I am happy and I have moved on. I used to write sad songs, poems, and I would talk about my old friends in Michigan. Well I just wanted to say I have found the most amazing friends in the world and I would never trade them in. They accept me as I am and I have never before met such amazing people.

Donna is blunt and honest she's a bit airheaded and careless. She is, personality wise, my opposite and I lover her! She has to be one of the most unique people I have ever known.

There is suzy who I don't know to much about. She is pretty and very sparkly. She is a happy go lucky person but cares alot for other people, sometimes I think she is too nice for her own good.

Then there is Kylee. Although I don't know much about her either she is spiffy and amazing. She is spontaneous and not afraid to speak her mind. I really admire Kylee and even though she doesn't know it, she is more amazing then she gives herself credit for.

Honestly I just love them all. Through fights and glomps and poke-a-boob Friday, I will always want them by my side.

The beginning was the hardest every day I would detest
I cried every night but still tried my best

I think I have forgotten just how you smile,
How we would laugh, cry and enjoy ourselves for a while

Now that I look back and cry
Why were we so close if we had to say goodbye

I called you every once in a while.
You never bothered to call, god, how I miss your smile

Since when did I suddenly get removed from your list?
Sometimes I would really like to see you again, I wished

Why did I have to go, while all of you stayed?
Why are we now forced down our separate ways?

Although I can’t remember the sound of your laugh
I will forever hold dear and cherish our past

So where did they go, the things I held onto so tight
Once vivid and multi-colored memories, now black and white.

Okay, every day I have a hour long bus ride home from school. Well I am absolutely horrible with things like that and I have only ridden the bus about 4 times so I am still getting use to it. Every day I stare out the window worrying. What will I do if I miss my bus stop, I don't remember this mabye I missed my bus stop, I don't remember this maybe I got on the wrong bus, That is what I am thinking.

Well today was just like all the other days had been. I have writing club mondays so I stay an hour late after school and catch the bus. Well as I was sitting there a lady came on the bus and sat across from me. I looked at her and she smiled warmly at me. I hadn't been having the best of days but when she smiled at me I instantly started feeling better.

After this I began thinking. I remember countless days when I felt like crap at school but as I pass my friends in the hallway at school and they smile I feel a little better. I know it's weird but that's just how I am. So the whole point of this was,

SMILE!
SMile because your happy smile because you want to or smile just because you can. It's amazing how much such a small thing can do. 4laugh heart

To all of my friends in Michigan... I LOVE YOU! I really do miss you all alot even if you don't call me.. at all. >.< Well even if you all are sometimes completely insane, always fighting with one another for stupid reasons, grumpy at times, or just being dorks <3, I will always love all of you because you really are the best friends that anyone could ever have.. I don't think I could even pick a best friend out of all of you because you are all completely awesome in you own ways! I love and miss you!! heart

Oh and to all of my Gaia friends that I have never actually met. Most of you are the same and I am sure if we actually ever met that I would glomp all of you and never let any of you go! 3nodding

Hmmm... yes I know this was just kind of random and odd but it tis my journal. So Ha, I laugh at you...

^^ Meh! >.< Heehee, I recently dyed my hair auburn but it has faded a lot.. shhhh!!! <333
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Oh and a warning, this is what will happen if my sister and me get bored and find eye liner XP

What can I say, it's just to fun!

Nyeh.. right now I am kind of in a weird mood, I don't know weither to be happy, sad, angry, or just anything. Yesterday I found out that the frist person I ever loved(even though we are just friends now) is going to die because of a brain tumor. He isen't going to get surgery because there is a chance he might become a vegetable but since he isen't they said that he would only live untill he is 25. For all of you that have problems I would just like to say, be happy that you are alive, that you are healthy, and that you will always have atleast one person in this world that that care about you or that would think about you when your gone. I can't say I have never not thought about suicide but when I thought about it I couldn't do it. There is so much to live for in this world, if there wasn't then we never would have been born, right? I live for my family and friends, I would give up my life to save a single one. My sister and me hate to see anyone cry or be upset, plus we are pretty good at cheering people up, so if you ever need someone to talk to I would be more than willing to talk. Actually, one of the things I was thinking about becoming when I am older was a psychologist because I want to help all of those people that have, or are loosing, their will to live. You were given life after all, why waste it? You must have it for some reason! I fall into depression easily, I am sure alot of people do. It doesn't mean you are weak or that you didn't try your best and fight back, none of that matters. It's fine to fall, just remember to pull yourself up afterwards, or find someone that can help you, that will never want to let you fall. I know I am just kind of rambling on so I will stop now sweatdrop I love you all even if I don't always act like it, just as long as you are alive make the most out of it. Don't wast your time looking for what you will never be able to find, spend your time with what you have and let the rest come to you.