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I'm going to college and high school full time. It's really hard and I'm struggling to pass all these classes. It will be worth it though when I finally do graduate high school early...then go on to do more college.
I have been reading some interesting things about chaos magic. It is really fascinating to read about...very very interesting indeed. Here is a passage that Peter Carol states in "Principia Chaotica".
"In Chaos Magic, beliefs are not seen as ends in themselves, but as
tools for creating desired effects. To fully realize this is to face
a terrible freedom in which Nothing is True and Everything is
Permitted, which is to say that everything is possible, there are no
certainties, and the consequences can be ghastly. Laughter seems to
be the only defence against the realisation that one does not even
have a real self."
Something to ponder.
 Miya X · Sat Apr 29, 2006 @ 03:32am · 0 Comments |
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I'm going to a new school. I like it much better than my old one: much less of a drug problem, the people are nicer, and the education is better. I'm happy I think. I hope that it lasts though. I met a bunch of nice new people and they're really cool to hang out with.
I miss some of my old friends though, but I guess I just I have to move on. neutral Maybe I'll see them again someday...but it really is too painful to talk about. I don't want to be friends with some of them again for certain. But there are some that I really do miss.
Miya X · Sat Feb 04, 2006 @ 07:01pm · 0 Comments |
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Geh. I got in a huge fight with my parents last night. They said that they're pretty much going to stop being my parents now.
What the ********? They won't take me anywhere to anything, and they've been acting upset with me all the time. I don't know how to make things change. Maybe last night was the last and final fight. They're always threatening to do things like this but maybe it's too late now.
I'm 17, guess they just want to force me "out of the nest" early. It's a bit soon but I guess it had to happen someday or whatnot. I'm still living at my house but I don't know how much longer they're going to let me.
I sobbed so much these past few days. I don't really know when I'm going to stop crying. Crying sucks to be doing it so much. I hate how it leaves this gross residue on my cheeks. And I hate silent crying the most. Sobbing so hard that you can't make a sound.
Well I don't know what's going to happen. I don't have any friends...I just kinda hang out at home all the time. I don't really have anyone that I can turn to for help. Guess I'm going to have to. I don't know.
Miya X · Sun Dec 11, 2005 @ 09:38pm · 2 Comments |
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Hmmm. I don't really know what to say here. I can't seem to be able to keep up with this journal. Oh well, all I can do is try.
I feel like I'm lacking a good education going to the school that I go to. I'm tired of no homework as silly as that sounds. Especially looking back on my former entries. I want to go to public school again. I like education. I can't believe I'm typing that - I LIKE education! -__-;
So yeah. xp
Not much else is new except I got a job. Yay! It's pretty good pay and I get to work with a bunch of hippies around me everywhere. That makes me happy. It's at a holiday market, so I get to listen to wonderful music while I sell toys and such. I'm such a child at heart. And I listen to music all the time anyway. So my favorite things combined ... whee!! ^_^
My best friend Jolissa is going to come visit me this summer. She lives in Amsterdam and I'm really excited! She told me she's going to stay for about a month. I'm so glad. She's one of my few true friends.
Miya X · Tue Dec 06, 2005 @ 04:03am · 0 Comments |
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I hate everything that's been on the news lately. I hate the war, I hate the hurricane, and everything else is s**t. Why can't people get their act together and stop the destruction?
It is said that every great civilization in history will eventually be destroyed by power and greed. Just like the Roman Empire I believe that the United States will fall.
Miya X · Sat Sep 03, 2005 @ 10:10pm · 0 Comments |
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My school is starting again soon. Wow, so much has happened this year! I've had extreme ups and downs...more so that I've ever experienced before. It's freaky how much life is changing for me. Too many turns to follow.
I turned 17 on August 24th...I'm going to be an adult in less than a year! A year!! It's weird thinking back on when I was 13; how old 16 felt, 18 was like "whoa!". As excited as I will be to become an adult I'm just as scared.
Last year a phrase from my mind would've read "I don't like drugs".
This year it reads (with correct changes) " I don't heart drugs mrgreen eek surprised lol sad wink cool evil twisted cry confused whee stressed ".
Yay.
Miya X · Tue Aug 30, 2005 @ 04:45am · 0 Comments |
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It's been a while since I've posted anything in this journal. It's been nearly a year and I've changed a lot. I went to the country fair and I got to see a lot of naked people. Yay.
Summer is pretty fun I guess. There's not a lot to do though.
Miya X · Wed Jul 13, 2005 @ 01:26am · 2 Comments |
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I get to work with little kids for a class that I'm in. They're so cute! I wish I could be a kid again. They don't have any worries or doubts about the world. Why can't we all live in naive bliss? I think knowledge is a virus; it makes things better for the moment...but the more we learn the more questions we have. Thus, we can never be truely happy. Meh.
Miya X · Mon Oct 11, 2004 @ 08:25pm · 1 Comments |
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Right now I'm in the "big city". I won't say which city it is in case I have any stalkers. ninja There's this awesome Asian mall here with little Japanese book stores and everything. So kawaii! 4laugh I got some Japanese candy, manga, a notepad, and a magazine with Japanese people who bleach their eyebrows. eek
Miya X · Sun Oct 10, 2004 @ 04:09am · 0 Comments |
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