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I quit Gaia for a while... not on purpose, it just kind of happened... But I'm back now because of Weirdog. I re-did my avatar's look and am still working on earning gold and improving my look even further... I'm playing a lot of games and selling stuff (stuff I do not even know why I have).... Now, I'm gonna go work on my Gaia and check my DeviantArt account, faerie-of-white-fire. ninja

Sir (one of the few people I consider to be higher up than myself (and yes, I realize that makes me sound big-headed)) has found himself a... ladyfriend. I have no respect whatsoever for this women, but after attempts of following the old rule

And being all but silent during her visits, I have come to a new realization: I can control and manipulate her, just as she inadvertedly has the ability to control Sir.
I hate to give in to her after all I've done to resist her, but I will have power. I must.
My first step presented itself when I baked an apple pie (from scratch) and she happened to be present. They both loved and complimented it, and though I still loathe her, I decided to fsahion myself a new plan, one were my generosity would be her downfall.

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Sir is going to visit her tomorrow (night)... I'm baking another pie. twisted

Nothing of significance took place during our last few days together, or nothing of significance involving the Enemy. She is as good as gone from my life, the only possible ways for us to relly meet again would be if she did indeed get into SOTA or if the Captain were to pull some sort of unwanted stunt.

Currently, I am unable to get in contact with my fellows, with the exception of the Captain. I have been, in a certain light, imprisoned within my mother's 'home.' There is no where to go, and even if there were, I have no way of getting there. My days now consist of sleeping, eating, watching television and DVDs. My only companions here are my two stalkers (cats) Subaru and Toboe (as I prefer to call them, instead of Lady Kat and Doc Kit rolleyes ). I am going insane inside my own head. I hear voices, imagine people, and dream horrible dreams. Until I am given my salvation, on the 21st of July.

The Captain has given up on the battle, and while she may deny, she is now a friend of the Enemy. I will remember her as I knew her, and try to handle my own emotions as best I can. When I asked her if she was friends with the Enemy, she said, "What does it matter if I talk to her?" Not sure why she answered my question with a partially related question... but no matter.

BR says that she is still sick of the Enemy, or at least talking to her. NB isn't friends with the enemy, but she doesn't really see the point in continiously not talking to her and other crap.

I am once again fearful of the Captain. She has always been the weakest at refusing the companionship of those she would rather not have to deal with. As of late, the enemy has been trying to re-enter our group. I do not know if she really thinks we can be friends again, is seizing the moment when the Captain was being very open and the center of attention.

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I believe it is not only the Captain, but the rest of my fellows as well, that are being taken in by the... my enemy's act. As I write this, I listen to them speaking about nothing in particular, as though the were friends again. She tries to make her mother sound pitiful and get them to take pity on her! I feared this would happen, I was supicious of it, though I believed I was just being paraniod, so I kept my fears to myself. But now, my little world is caving in. The group battle has ended and I am alone in my struggle.

I refuse to give in! I will fight against her as long as I can. I will not let my enemy overcome me. Which is why I plan on having one final out with with her, on our final day. I will tell her why I dislike her, even if it means sinking to her level.

edit: okay, I can't deal with her, at all, so I'm not even gonna try to tell her why I stopped talking to her and all that crap...

The counselor forget about the meeting, so now it might not even happen! I am mad.

Also, the enemy was in the school talent show (not a competition or anything, just a showing off thing). She sang Kelly Clarkson's 'Beautiful Disaster.' She played the song, words and all, really loud so it was hard to hear her voice.

Everyone liked it, except myself. It may make me seem like a total b***h, but I hate her guts far too much to accept anything she does. Also, she sings out of her nose.

I am making an analysis of her and this is what I have so far:

1. Something may be wrong in her life so she feels the need to put on an act for the rest of the world.

2. She may feel resentment towards certain people from her life (outside of school), and doesn't know how to express her anger in a healthy way, so she takes it out on those around her.

3. She wants to make her life look better than it really is, and tries to get anything and everything that is needed or requested. --> Overly useful.

4. She likes what other people do, and whether she is physically/mentally capable or not, tries to copy what they do.

Apparently the meeting was post-poned until Monday, and absolutely nothing happened Thursday while I wasn't there...

Today I have orientation for highschool and have to take my placement tests and sign up for classes... so I MUST STAY FOCUSED! ninja

We finally brought the matter up with our school councillor, but we only wish to try to stop JT's mistreatment of her only friends. We are concerned for Jade and Glenda, even if we dislike them, we don't want to see them end up like JT unknowingly.

The meeting was supposed to take place, but we were to have a spokesperson, we choose the Captain. I do not yet know what took place in the meeting, as I didn't go to school today (saw the Star Wars movie at 12:20 this morning, got home and slept until 12:20 this afternoon).

I intend to find out what happened soon though.

It is common knowledge that Jade (see past post) is a friend of the enemy. She is mistreated and abused, but still a friend of the enemy.

She recently tried to lead us to believe that she believed JT to be

She may think that, but we cannot be entirely sure. She tried to join us, and we didn't stop her. We never put much trust in her, but we still hoped she had seen that JT is not, nor will be, a good friend or person.

Tuesday, the day she had been most actively an alleged enemy of JT, I spotted her and the enemy sitting and laughing backstage during 5th and 6th period commedia dell'arte.

Jade was not highly disliked before, simply not considered trustworthy. We now know not to be so foolish as to think that she will ever change her opinion of JT, no matter what happens between them. One can't help but admire that kind of belief in a person.