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I hate this day, I'll hate tomorrow, I'll hate the whole year if my life wants to be just like it was today. Why do we have feelings, if in the end it's always bad? The memory of pain is pain, the memory of happiness is nothing. In my country everybody runs, nobody has just a little time for the other person, even known or unknown. We don't love people. We don't trust them, becuase people use this for bad things. So if there is somebody asking for help, you say Go away noob. You were a noob once, weren't you? You were sad, because everybody around you was acting just like you are now doing it. It really hurts, to just tell him or her the answer? Sometimes they can't understand what you say, but still! If you do good, somebody will do good for you, too. Something good will happen, or what. It's not true now. I helped today for 2 people, and I just noticed that this day was the worst day of my life. My whole family. Why do you want a child, if you don't do anything to let her or him feel good? You should only say, that there will be no problem, or you will be next to them always. But no. They say you do this and this, and point. You should tell them in a better way, for example, to let them feel like it's really good for you. Actually, you want to do it. But they say it so rude. Everything why you wanted to do it, flows away. Just a few words. Can you see now how much does words mean? What you say, that is in your heart. Whatever I do, whatever I wanted to do, however I say sorry, they accept it only if I cry. And I'm not going to cry. It is stupid. I wanted to do my plan successfully. My plan was that I'll act like I'm sad (I'm actually sad, but I never show it to anyone). Maybe they will understand the meaning of 'please' and 'thanks'. Really, just only one word, and you can make somebody's day better. And I'm paranoid. My whole family says that don't have any friends, they are rude and mean, and everything. They have got friends too, but they MUST tell me what is good and what is wrong from their eyes. So everything, what I like, drop away, and do what everybody else wants. Seriously, is this really the only way to make myself happy? They ALL say that it will be good for me. Okay, let's say it's gonna be OK. But still! I don't have any friends? I became a paranoid because of this, and they laugh at me! I did a test and it said that yes, I am a paranoid. Guess what was their answer. 'Tests lie...' Sure. But let's speak about House M.D. In my country, this episode was on TV: when House tries to kill himself for a while with putting a knife into the plug. I don't know why did he do it. And if there is nobody? If the girl who he called doesn't go there? If he DIES? And he is atheist. I don't like atheist. I hate them. The only reason why I watch House M.D. is because it's funny and it's about medical doctors. I want to be a medical doctor when I'll grow up. Maybe... but it's not the only one job what I'd like to do wink . By the way who loves the Hudson Hawk film? rofl How did this come here? By bus... I'm stupid. In a good way. Somebody make me normal sad .