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"A body of thirst will stand in morning rain
Testing faith like a safety net; two hands
Side by side collecting drops like so many
Walendas fallen from a tight rope.
I am the way to the city of woe. What a way to go.
While seasons work to gully
Earth's inventory, this body, despite alternatives, will
Board and stand, reaching in the air with excuses and move
To hold the metal rail and hang; solder and sinew,
Thick with wet, the heaviest fruit, as if it came natural."
-Gregory Pardlo




Today, I took a walk down memory lane. It's a path I've been avoiding for a while, because I'm not the type of person to handle resurfacing memories well. I tend to get lost somewhere down a'ways between past and present. There, I will find the brightest spot, the circle of light, my ten minutes in heaven, and I will stand there and only there. I will raise my face towards the sky and feel the sun's warmth on my face, before something cold tugs me back into the shadows. How rude.

You're supposed to acknowledge the past, yet move on. Isn't that how it goes? That's where it gets me though. How am I supposed to progress towards something newer and better when the future is in the dark? Isn't it easier to look behind me, where I've left a brilliant streak of light, illuminating the good ol' days, in my wake?

In case you haven't realized, change can be amazing. It can be instantaneous, or it can take years. But change is not limited to one thing; it never is. Change is like a row of dominoes, all connected, yet separate. Sometimes you can fit between two dominoes neatly, and step out with the row untouched. But that's an art I have yet to perfect. (Too much junk food perhaps?) That's why dwelling in the past is risky business. Wouldn't want to knock one down.

I've already decided that wishing for old memories to catch up with you in the present is a waste of time. What's over is over, and the best I can do is to recall it with fondness. There's a thin line between remembering and longing, though, and I'm still searching. Cause foreal though, I always seem to be falling into the latter category.

If this is a moment, it would pass.


-Peach. I'm simple, ask anyone.

Umm...yeah.

I missed you people too much. heart

Duuuude, I feel like such a n00b. This site has changed so much since I left. Like WHERE THE HELL IS EVERYTHING??! scream

Did anybody miss me?
Did anybody wonder where I went?
Did anybody even notice I was gone?

Probably not.

*sigh*

YOUR VOICE IS LIKE A STRANGER
Deceiving me into ataraxia.
Though grace has left, boarding a train
adjacent to mine.
I wave as it bleaches into
white like an abandoned canvas
A spot showing creation
Spotlessness showing denial.
Panic is an old friend.
With blank eyes I welcome it.

^THARR'S A PEACHY ORIGINAL.
Am I normal now?

My birthday was today biggrin

It was fun, but any regular day could've been as fun too. So nothing special. But I liked it.

I am sosososo lucky for everything I have. I'm getting a new cellphone, Jen spent ten bucks on a insy winsy bottle of lotion for me. Which I adore, but, dude ten bucks?

And I got over 10 b-day wish pm's, not including friends. I love all you guys. heart

It's Yahoo and Whee combined.

Yawhee!! whee

Well yeah, anyway, it's Thanksgiving break finally. Me and my two birthday buddies (whose birthday's are both Nov 23) are going to see Harry Potter tomorrow. Then I must go shopping for them two, and I hate getting people gifts because I never know what they want sad

And then Jen and I are getting new shoes together Friday.
vans off the wall B]

Then I get to go snowboarding! The last time I went snowboarding, the front end of my board caught in the snow, and I fell forwards on my face. And the time before that, on skis, I fell and then slid down the whole mountain on my butt, which was really fun. But then I had to hike back up and pick up my lost skis and ski poles.

Homan I suck. whee

EDIT:
NOBODY EFFIN COMMENTS MY JOURNAL ANYMORE LIKE WTF
except lauren and rya, they pwn.