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Ok, so my goodbye message was a little halted and I realised that I wanted to say a little something to everyone important. Here it goes (in alphebetical order xD):

Aari (Sedi/Lainn): You rock my world. I'll see you on the dark side! wink

a**s Pie: Ok girly, you sure as hell better talk to me still. We need to spend more crazy times in Mill Bay! You are my wifey forever! <3

bakuha: I know in the last few months of me being on here, we haven't talked much, but I want you to know that I will miss you! Your art is amazing, keep up the good work.

Biky: Well... no words, I guess. I will keep in touch, I promise.

Dragoil: What can I say, you are addicted! Much love, I'll see you on the dark side, too!

Elbs: I hope everything goes well for you in life. You are an awesome person, much love.

EnahEnah: You better stay in contact somehow, because I love you!!! <3

Fimmy: You better stay in contact mister! <3 We'll keep in touch, I know.

Goat: Things are crazy, life is crazy. I still hold a place for you in my heart. I hope your life goes well from here on out.

hake: You rock, always be the amazing friend you are.

Hawk: Yeah, I know, the last person anyone expected in here. I hope life is well for you and I hope you are happy, despite everything.

Kaiba: Our talks have a most special place in my heart. Thank you for being there for me.

Meph: xD You better keep in touch too! Crazy kid! I love the rumours by the way! xD

Mori: What can I say, I will never forget your blackface! Rock on.

Nightmareater: My favourite little mexican. Keep in touch, ok? Because I will miss you!

Ruby: Oh how I will miss you so very much. You better keep in touch too, missy!

Saines: I'll see you on the darkside! And now I won't have to avoid genders!

Tyo: Homan... Homan.. I dunno what to say but I LOVE YOU! xD See you on the darkside!

unsolvedenigma: My favourite artist, my favourite store. You rock. Keep in touch.

If anyone wants to stay in touch with me, my e-mail is MidnightAllusion@hotmail.com or my number is (250) 701-3267. See you all on the flipside.

<Adi

I haven't updated in here forever. My reasoning? Because I just plain don't want to and I have been to busy. Well, it's time for me to say goodbye now. I have stored away most of my favourite items with close friends that I know IRL. Please don't ask for anything as I am not giving anything away. I love you all and I'll miss you muchly.

<3 Adi

(November 28, 3003 - June 15, 2005)

Well, I have been really freaking busy lately. I can't believe it. When I am not working, I am sleep, when I am not sleeping, I am with friends. Don't get my wrong, I love it, every freaking moment of it. This is the first time in awhile that I have felt like I am accomplishing something in my life. I see my goal and I am actually moving towards it! Go me!!

Unfortunately, the downside is that I don't get to talk to all the people online very much! I miss all of you, especially Mel, Margi, Lauren and Ian. All of you guys are so freaking awesome! <3 But my life has just been too hectic. So you all need to pm me with phone numbers or find some way to get me phone numbers, so I can call you all and talk it up a bit! Part of me feels like I am leaving the part of my life behind. But there is no way that I am going to lose touch with some very important people. You have all helped me in more ways then you can imagine and I can't imagine not knowing you for the rest of my life.

Mel ~ Keep your head up! I love you oh so much and I know that you deserve better than all that life has thrown at you. Guys suck, you and I both know that. But dammit I am gunna come see you this summer, I promise! <3

Margi ~ DUDE! I need to get my a** to seattle! I will soon, I promise! I miss talking to you, you are an amazing person! I am really hopeing you find a way to go to Berklee, you deserve to be there! ^_^

Lauren ~ Wow... thank you so much for everything. There is a fair amount of history between us now and we are still friends. I think I have to come see you this summer too. I can't wait to meet you and spend time with you and have fun, because that is exactly what we'll do! ^_^ You, my dear, are the epitome of awesome. You didn't give up hope on me. thank you!

Ian ~ Sometimes life throws us curve balls to see if we are paying attention. I miss you, but not in the way of the boyfriend. I miss my best friend! I miss being able to talk to you and whine when s**t went wrong! You've made one of the most amazing friends that I have had. I hope that the end of our relationship won't tarnish that. You = awesome! I lurve you muchly! ::nodnod:: (expect random phone calls from me sometime)

Alrighty, now that I am done blathering on about the people that I don't get to talk nearly enough anymore. It's only been just over a week, but it feels like an eternity. Anyways, I won't be on this weekend. I am going to Vancouver so I won't have access to a car. So I will talk to you all when I get back! Much love to you all and don't be too sad without me! ^_~

This is me signing off! ~Sheri

(This is a copy+paste from my livejournal)
So, today Ian and I broke up. It is a little disheartening, but to be honest, I am not as sad as I thought I would be. I was with a lot of friends tonight so I had a chance to talk it through with all of them. And I realised that I think Ian and I would be better as friends anyways. Perhaps, I felt that the spark was gone too, but I was denying it. Sure, this is going to be a little awkward. But I am hoping that Ian and I can just move past this and consider it a blip in our friendship. I care for him, but I think that we will be better as friends. And if, for some unforseen reason, we were meant to be together, then it will happen. But right now I just want to be friends with him.

Ian, I want you to know that I am not mad at you in anyway. Nor do I harbour any feelings of resentment. I want us to move on with our friendship. I know this may be a little awkward at first, but I think we can do it. Because we are both people who can deal with that kind of stuff. You have been there for me and I hope that you felt that I have been there for you and that shouldn't change. You have been my best friend first and foremost. Don't feel bad because you said how you feel. I think that that was the most open you have been to me and I admire you for that. And oddly enough, I feel that our friendship has gotten stronger because of this, not the other. I hope that you feel the same way as I do, even just a little.

That is all I have to say. It's just another day in the life of Sheri and I will make it through this! Why? Because I am strong and I have been through a lot of s**t. I can do it, I know I can.

I am starting my first graveyard today! gonk I am scared! Oh well! I shall do ok me thinks! I is kinda sleepy at this very moment.. maybe I will have ltos of coffee and sugar! whee Anyways, wish me muchos luck! Muah to all!

Love you, Ian! whee heart

Accept the things I cannot Change

I can't change my parents. I can't stop them from pushing me as much as they do. I can't stop my mothers belittling glances. I wish I could change people, but I can't. I wish I could make people open up to me, but I can't. I wish I could change the world, but I can't. I can only change myself. I can only change how I react to circumstances around me. It's so much easier to blame someone or something else, but that is just not fair.

Courage to Change the things I can

I need a job, I need to get out of here. But I'm scared. Scared of taking the next step, scared of leaving my safe little box. I know I need to and I'm going to, but these steps I try to take seem so large. I wish I could wake up and magically have an awesome job that I like.

And the Wisdom to know the Difference

So here is the hard part. Actually recognizing the difference. I wish life was easier, but it isn't. So I'll struggle though, holding my own. One day I will make my mark on this world, whether it be big or small, I will make my mark.

So tonight Yensil, Proccy and I were all sharing some of our poetry. Going through some of mine sent me down the road of memories, some sad, some happy. But I smiles at them all, because I can remember! Anyways, this is one of Yensil's and I really really liked it.. It hit home...

The rule of threes

The stars,
The stars, they guide me through
The night
They guide me straight to you.

You can say a thing that isn't true
But it is no lie that I miss you
Say it thrice it must be true
And so I say that I love you

Say it once,
It may not be true
Say it twice
It may not be true
But say it thrice
And it must be true
And so I say that I love you

I look into the nighttime sky
And see the clouds go drifting by
The city lights
They shine so bright
They hide the stars
There are no stars

I see the moon
And all too soon
I think of you
What shall I do?

Say it once, it isn't true
Say it twice it's still not true
Say it thrice it must be true
I love you
I love you
I love













You.

~Yensil

Ok, this is kind of like a follow up to my last journal entry, simply because I can. I was kind of in a state when I wrote it. A bit emo. xp I know that it has no bearing really. But I want to thank all my friends. Those of you who commented and those of you who PMed me! heart You guys rock and I love you all! You all never fail to cheer me up when I am sad! And just to make everyone feel special: (in no specific order)

Ty-o ~ You rock! heart We've had ups, we've had downs and we've hit the very bottom. But we always get right back up and start again. Part of what gives me drive is my friends like you, who never let me give up! Luv ya! And Call me sometime! wink I miss our giggly fun time! xd

Lainn ~ Homan, words cannot express how happy I am that we are friends! You are one of the only people who can make me laugh so hard I curl up on the kitchen floor! wink Those were good times. We can have serious conversations and sing at the top of our lungs in Gay Hick voices all in the same 10 minute drive! heart I don't know anyone else like you, and I like it that way!

Enah-Enah ~ You appeared one day, like magic! And you fit right in! Like a perfect addition to our group of friends! heart We don't talk as much as we used to, but you are an awesome person and I miss having you around. I hope you move back to PG, so a few of us can take a road trip to see you! whee

Proccy ~ Our talks are crazy, fun and sometimes a little illiterate, but that is half the fun! heart I love being able to talk about guys with you, especially a certan two! wink You rock and I am sure that Boston will come to his senses! Luv ya! And I am so coming to Chicago so that we can comfort each other in the absence of our males! heart

Bekah ~ What can I say? You are awesome. I am so glad that you gave me a chance after all of that other stuff that happened! whee Goat adores you and so he should! Keep it real and don't worry so much! heart

Melime ~ Hmm... we don't really talk too much anymore, but we still come through for each other. Thank you for your comments and strength! heart

And last but definately not least
Goat ~ I really don't know where to begin. I love you, plain and simple. You have helped me in more way then you can ever imagine. I know that you weren't doubting us, I guess I just got insecure. Thank you for being there for me, through thick and through thin. heart

To any of you who I might of missed, that does mean I don't care! I heart all my friends as they have stuck by me!