I keep saying I want to be one, but I'm not. I can't deny it.
Sometimes the selfishness, I realize, goes to my head. It tells me I can do it, even better than all the people in drama club, which sucks by the way, but that's a lie. I've tried, and I can't. I'm too dam nervious and confused. I wish I could act.
I wish I could get that money to help my friends. The ones whose parents don't get them the proper food to live; I invite them over to eat with me and my health family. The ones who have a small home, so small it frustrates the whole family; I want to buy them some place nice and relaxing. The ones who have not-so-good parents because they're divorced and fighting over their kid, but the kid never gets to choose what she wants to do... the kid doesn't make many friends... I'm one of them. But I wish, sometimes, I wasn't. I'm a terrible friend... Clingy and confused. And misleading.
I wish I could buy her a home and bring all her friends near... far from me, so she never has to see me or deal with me. Than give the rest to my family. My brother... a slave to disney, having a frustrating life because he was kicked out of the house and unprepared. My mom and step-dad so they can live happily without having to work so hard.. because they deserve better. I just wish mom wouldn't buy so much candy then eat it in-between meals. Or she hides it... letting it rot and the money go to waste. Either is bad... so I guess I would leave strict instructions with the money.
I would donate some... to places that conduct animal experiments, and tell them to find another way that doesn't harm and kill animals. Some places have... why can't they.
The selfish part, me wanting to be famous and rich, keeping the money to myself... the fame would go to my head like anyone's.
Who doesn't want that?
· Wed Jul 21, 2010 @ 06:51pm · 0 Comments