- Things that shasha had wished she had told the crushes in her life:
1. I had liked you since freshman year. But, back then you had a crush on one of my friends so I couldn't do anything. It didn't help that you would come to my 6th period class and play cards with me everyday. Skip to junior year, I had you for music class. By then I had tried to forget the crush I had on you and you had moved on from your crush my friend. You had a girlfriend then. We became friends and you showed me your girlfriends pictures, god those days were painful. Senior year, I had you for math, we became even closer friends and you sometimes hinted at things between us when you and your girlfriend weren't doing so well. But too bad for you that I had completely moved on from that tiny crush I had from freshman year. Now I can't imagine you as anything but a friend, I know too much about your life.
2. We both knew what we did was pretty stupid. It was never gonna get anywhere. So what if I made the move to break up, you weren't gonna do it anytime soon. I knew I couldn't like you as much as you liked me. At least I had the maturity to end it before things went downhill. They were already starting to. Two years of my life wasted.
3. I liked you, a lot. I didn't wanna like you, the way the other ditzy girls in the class. I didn't wanna be treated the same way you treat them. I know you hated them, I don't think I could stand it if you hated me. Being one of the three seniors in a class full of stupid freshman, I wanted to prove to you I was mature and intelligent. I questioned everything you did, I disagreed with you when no one else was gutsy enough to do it. I treated you indifferently and got the attention I wanted. You gave me the respect I wanted, you treated me with affection, complimented my work, my intelligence. Too bad I could only be with you for one semester. Too bad you were my teacher.
4. You were a total a*****e. How could you do that to me? How could you be such a traitor? After all those days of being friendly, you turn on me just because some c**t told you to? I thought you were different but you really aren't. ******** you, I hope you get hit by a bus.
5. You were the cutest thing. And you were most likely gay too. I remember when you first tranferred to our school, you had no friends and sat alone. You looked so depressed, not in a repulsive scene kid way. Was it any wonder I had nicknamed you 'Cute Emo Kid'? I had first seen you sitting next to where our group hung out and told myself, I was gonna go talk to you tomorrow. Then a lot of things happened at once, I didn't have time to talk to you, or talk to anyone for that matter. I was the one who depressed this time around. I didn't see you after that. Senior year I saw you at the bus stop, you were wearing a dog leash (I should have known then which way you swung but I only fantasized about how cute you looked then). We went on the same bus, got off at the same stop. You must have thought I was a stalker or something but I was actually going to a job interview that day and was pretty sad that we had to part at the intersection. At least now I know where to find you if I ever wanted to see your face again. God that sounded creepy. I'm wasting my time, you're probably gay.
6. You come on too strong. Stop hitting on me so much, it's a major turn off. And to think I used to crush on you at work. You were uber tall and strong. But now you're just annoying.
7. You must be the younger version of #3. You were utterly perfect. We had such great chemistry, you and I. I loved the way you paid attention to me. I remember how jealous I would get when you talked to any other girl but me. You could have been my mr. right. But then God drove a bulldozer through my life and everything changed.
8. At first, I didn't pay much attention to you. You were younger than me so I didn't care about you. But that didn't stop you, you tried to get my attention. I remember when you always commented everything I said in chemistry class. I ignored you back then. Then second semester, the seating chart changed and you now sat in front of me. You were charming and funny and smart. I started to like you. But I still wasn't fully attracted to you, you were still a younger kid to me.
9. Russian. That's all I have to say. Even if you were a jackass at times, and you pissed me off. You were still totally hot.
10. Crushing on you for more than a month, I really wanted to get to know you better. Sucks that you turned out to be a girl though. Now I'll never get to know you, I'm too mortified to talk to you.
