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I'm really happy! Some lovely people have drawn me some avi art, and I just had to post it somewhere. Will probably put it in my profile, too, when it stops playing up. I've really enjoyed this event, it's been great... and not as competitive as last year! xd Barton pride!

Here's my Barton avi as a reference:


Harmonious Chaos was the first to be kind enough to make a version of my avi in pixel form. Thank you! mrgreen


This is by the lovely Kam-Pup, who drew a full chibi. Thank you so much! I love it! heart


This one is by Mrs Damian Von Helson. Thanks muchly, it's very cute! 3nodding

Wow, that song is pure awesome! xd

Right now, I'm supposed to be revising. As far as anyone is concerned, that's what I'm doing; afterall, I've got my final exam tomorrow morning (too early for my taste, I might add). Lack of motivation and presence of awesome heavy metal remixes of Jekyll and Hyde are keeping me listless on the revision front, and right now I'm okay with it. I'll feel differently in the morning. So here I am, sitting at my desk and drinking Rockstar energy drinks, waiting for the end of term. It's been a colourful year. cool

Also, am I the last person to hear about this Dragonball film? The idea of it scares me, especially with James Masters playing Picollo... I'll never be able to look at Spike the same way again. heart emo

Aaanyway, needless to say I'm bored and all that. I just want to get this exam out of the way so that I can relax all of Thursday and watch Heroes... mwahaha! Oh yeah, it's also the family birthday fortnight. Last week it was my older brother's birthday, today it's my sister's, tomorrow my dad's, and then it's me in a few days... at least exams will be over and done with then. Oh yeah, Chichiri's birthday tomorrow, too... no da!! 3nodding

Life, it seems to me, is a series of circles, enclosed in a much larger sphere... but then again, metaphors have never been my strong point. The little rings are sort of like the story arcs in our lives, such as school, uni, work, dating etc, and the outer circumference is the big picture; life, I suppose. The chain in the center keep on repeating our experiences, from small things like our school life being reflected in our working life, to the more general notions like good coming after the bad, then back again. Of course this is a flawed notion, we grow from experience and mature as human beings, resulting in our actions changing in later life. However, as events continue to repeat themselves, I can't help but feel that life is nothing but a linear path that we can't escape from.

I digress, reading that back I can see how it makes no sense, but I suppose I can blame that on the SLD. The reason all this has come to mind is because of disorder in the flat. In the last four months, we've had three different people filling the same room, and all three have left after a short amount of time. If I was a little less grounded in reality, I would probably assume that it's the room that had a strange effect on them all. I've even wondered if it was the three of us remaining who caused this. That would be the logical assumption, afterall, but sadly I can't place the blame so easily. Perhaps wanting to see things in black and white definites is human nature when things become unclear. Alienation, violence and lies - all abstract entities on their own - are what have caused breakdowns over these few months, and in that order. We're all flawed as humans, and prone to each of these, but for the sake of others we work to overcome them. After each person has left, I've seen in my two remaining flatmates a kind of exhaustion, a weariness and unwillingness to reach out again, and I believe this was the final straw. They are no longer willing to allow people to enter in, or to let themselves trust anyone else, out of fear that once again they will be used and shattered as the result of things.

But as I reflect on what has once more come to pass, I can't help but wonder if there was anything I could have done to prevent this. It tends to bring a lot into perspective, and allows a re-evaluation of self to a certain degree. You start to ask yourself how you could have behaved differently, or acted to inspire others to do the same. And I can't help but wonder... what will be the final straw as far as I'm concerned? Is this repeatition going to repeat unto me?

As posts are solely for my own benefit, they have become increasingly far between. Another term has passed, and although a short one it has had its fair share of drama. We've had people move into the flat, and out, fights, hospital trips and a whole slew of illnesses and injuries. Although now that things have settled down it's further proven that there's no other place I would like to be spending my student life (and with no other people), I'm glad to be back to regroup after the eventful term. It's been trying on everyone, and some space is probably what's needed in all cases.

On a positive note, we've also had two birthdays in the term: an 18th and 21st. I'm sincerely hoping that my flatmates do not do the same to me on my 21st; I would probably die of shock. rofl We also have a kitten in the household; a little white kitten by the name of Boo (he's too cute for words!) And now I'm back home for the hols, chilling out at my desk after fixing the damage my brother caused and lazing the days away. Life's cyclical motions aren't without irony. Let's see how long this cycle continues to repeat, shall we?

Been a mixed day, to be honest. Uni started up again this week after the exams (which didn't go too well... I showed up to both, which is a plus!) and the intro lessons are always bordering on pointless. Today we started 17th Century Literature, which seems all right. Hm...

Before lectures, of course, I checked the net. Perhaps I'm being slow, and maybe it's been this way for a few days already, but I noticed that my You Tube display pic changed. Looks like Shoujo Cosette - Imagine has been taken down due to copyright, which sucks. sad No point in finishing the other I've got in the works now... *sigh*

But, as days balance out sometimes, once lectures were over things started to pick up. This is going to show my sadness, really, but what really brightened my day was the conversation a group of us had in the bar afterwards. We weren't talking about one thing in particular, and moved from films, to philosophy, to the state of mankind, to evolution, to history... it was a really intellegent conversation, which was really engaging and interactive; just great fun really! Yeah, I'm a geek, so sue me. Nothing else to say, my interaction chip has shorted. Going to Hull for the day a week tomorrow... woot. Until later!

Relatively painless in all, that's how I'd sum up the trip back. I say relatively because of a few hitches, namely a very bumpy flight that made a lot of people turn green, irregular Sunday trains and a damp room on return to the flat. I'm still willing to say that it was pretty painless. The journey started at 5am, which I'll feel in the morning when I have to hand in my essay, and finished at about 12:45 this afternoon. Not bad.

Won't go into travel anymore, because I'm bored of it and I'm sure that the only other person reading this (yes, I'm talking about my ego, which will drive me to read it again later on) is bored too. Was a good holiday, just wish it could have lasted a little longer. Just over a week away from exams, and I can tell you that I have another video idea. I swear, my timing impresses me sometimes.

What is there to report? A manga series has impressed me over the hols (when I finally found a shop that sold volumes 2-4), but when has Clamp been anything but impressive? I am, of course, talking about Tsubasa. Could there be another obsession on the horizon? We can only speculate. Got to see someone about this OCD. wink

As is customary at this time of the term, here is my 'going back home' post. Feels kind of surreal, to be honest, it doesn't seem like I'm going back tomorrow; I feel like I've got ages yet. Still need to pack, and buy my train ticket, and hand in my last essay... To tell the truth, I'm going to miss it here for the next month, everything's so much nicer than last year and I'm going to miss everyone. gonk But that said, I'm also glad to be going home. True, once I'm back I'll probably have to work again, and with essays and exams after Xmas there will be a lot of uni work to get on with, but a break's a break. Should really tidy up here before going...

What else is there to say that hasn't been said before? I still hate planes, and the thought of travelling all day isn't a fun one, but it'll all work out by the end *fingers crossed.* Signing out, got to get some headphones and a train ticket. Until later!

Actually, I'll just give one reason, because one is enough. For the awful service they deliver - a ricketty plane that sounds and looks like it could come crashing down at any moment, sitting you in the seat you didn't ask for (I hate window seats, you asked what I wanted and I said aisle, so why put me next to the window?) next to a noisy tourist who wants to discuss their not-so-fascinating Harry Potter book between blowing their nose loudly in their paper handkerchief while I'm trying to read something that's actually intellectually stimulating, after being delayed for the best part of an hour in Manchester airport and being told you have to send your handluggage on with the rest of the suitcases despite it being perfectly within regulation size and weight - I kind of expected them not to, you know, rob me blind. I do love a good rant.

Feel a prat, to be honest, both me and my two flatmates managed to sleep through our alarms this morning, so missed one of the two lectures we have this week (it's an easy week). Can't wait to find out how much we're going to pay for that next week. Not that I regret last night, we had a blast playing Guitar Hero 3 - which we completed on one of the difficulties during the evening - and Prince of Persia until the early hours, it's just a shame we couldn't drag ourselves out of bed. As you can probably guess from the one lecture to go, it'll be a pretty lax week, essays aside. Need to go to town tomorrow to pick up a parcel and deliver my brother's birthday present (which he'll love, by the way xd ), then have a lecture without the seminar. All sounds good. Wednesday I'll expand upon once it's over with, because I'd prefer to know what's happening before I start speculating, but it means another early morning and a finger pressed firmly to the lips of the few who know... namely four, and two not in the town. After that I'm determined to make it to tai-chi, as I'll have missed the medi due to the Wednesday morning appointment with destiny and it'll be one of the last times I go before the hols.

I'm just hoping these essays get done with the minimal of fuss (or effort, but that's asking a lot) so that I can chill out for the hols. Ah, nearly home! cool