Today I had a good talk with my closest friend and it was pretty good. I feel I can accept whats going on with her more, now that she cleared some things up. But its still going to be uphill for a while so wish us luck[sorry for not putting much detail about the situation but if you wanna know I dont mind telling.]

My personal dilemma on the other hand, isn't much closer to being solved. I know what I want, or maybe its that I know what Im afraid of, but at the same time I want what I dont want Im just to afraid to get close to it.Im going to try even if its just a little. Also Im determined to do better in school. >: )

well thats all the veg thoughts I have for now. I intend to use this journal more....slowly though.