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What do you do when you just don't care? When all you want to do is sleep and hope that when you wake up, something will be different? But if it's not whatever. How do you make yourself continue doing papers and playing games like it matters? I don't know and I am having trouble acting like I do. I feel as thought I am drowning in my minds yet not because I can't swim but because I don't care if I survive.

I don't think my friends see it either. I reach out for people I know won't help me or don't care about me. But that is only because I know they will turn me away so I don't have to worry about it. It hurts but I can deal with that. I just wish people could see and I didn't have to tell them. Vocalizing it makes me seem pathetic as though I am unale to fight my own internal demons. Maybe I can't. Who knows.

You are Grounded

You are one of the fortunate few people who is perfectly content with themselves. Though maybe not overly confident, you don't struggle with any significant insecurities and are certainly not shy. You aren't emotional, and though this makes you seem uncaring sometimes, anyone who gets to know you a little better knows there is a whole load of emotion just beneath the surface, you just control it very well.

The downside of being so balanced is you don't readily throw yourself off balance, like falling in love, for instance. You lack the capacity to be creative in a truly original sense and need someone else to bring flair and individuality into your life, or else run the risk of having your life become mundane and boring.

As you are so steadfast and capable, you can be a rock for a less secure person. You love being supportive and helping and could give yourself forever, as long as you got a little back. It doesn't take much to keep you happy, and when you do fall in love you are wholeheartedly there for your partner through all the highs and lows life throws at you.

Most compatible with: The Dreamer

The Dreamer is the polar opposite to you. Overly emotional, unstable and unbalanced, they are far from the secure person you are, but they have an artistic side that you will never have. They can see beauty and romance in everything, things you would take no notice of. Though you will often struggle to see eye to eye with the Dreamer, the intrigue and mystery that surrounds them and the colour they bring to your life will keep you holding onto them forever. After all, opposites attract, neh?

Least compatible with: The Submissive

The Submissive is only interested in serving their partner, and as you are an independent person who likes doing things for themselves and has no need for someone to depend on, a relationship with the Submissive is likely to irritate you to no end.

Your song is: This is the Last Time, Keane



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I love my family. When I say family I don't mean my aunts and uncles ( though I do I love them.). I mean my family of friends. Now who is included in this?

Amanda- Who got me a Digi cam for Christmas/B-Day.
Samantha- A Memory card for said Camera.
Ryan- See above.
Bailey
Jackie-A $20 gift card for...BOOKS!
Mitch-Mr. Potatoe Head Darth Tater
Anais-See Above.

There are a lot more people on that list, yet those are the ones who have just given me the best gift I've ever gotten for my birthday. What gift is that you ask? A suprise birthday party (held at the Lovelady's house) for my 18th birthday, which is Wenesday.

Why is it the best? Because they were there and we laughed and had a good time with Cake. I don't know what I do would do without these people. No, I do know what I would do. I would be totally lost and a completely different person than I am now. Every single one gives me something differnt and I don't just mean gifts.

Amanda is my sister and there for me no matter what. Sammi is my other sister, the one who teaches me how to smile even when I feel like crying. Bailey...god, she's someone with who no words are needed. Jackie, while a fairly new friend, is someone I hope will be my friend for a long long time. Ryan, my surrogate brother is special because I will never know my actual brother. Anais is unique. She makes me smile and her relationship with Mitch shows me what love could be. Mitch, dear god, Mitch makes me laugh like no one else I've ever known.

There were a few other people who were supposed to be there, like Joe, who got grounded and The Fazzinos (anyone else thinks it's weird that they were on the list to go to my party...cause I don't. Fuzz is an adult I trust and am so glad I met as a freshman. I've never said this about anyone before that I can remember but...he's been a role model for me.), who had to cancel because they made other plans that they forgot about until last minuet.

Other people who could have been invited weren't, not because I don't love them but because it was a suprise party and my sister had know way of finding out who they were or contacting them. To be honest the party wasn't much of a suprise but it still made my heart happy, knowing that they cared enough about me to throw it. I don't know if any of them actually realize how much that means to me.

It means so much that I'm so happy I want to cry. For people who know me well they realize that's a huge thing for me to say.

These are the people I want to surround myself with for my whole life. The ones who make me happier than I can ever remember being and accept me as I am, faults and all.

To Them: Thank You and I Love You All.