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Today I was on a walk...Just walking boredly burning my skin with the sun's harmful rays. On the this walk I looked around, noticing a lot of things has change through the years. Let alone people are disappearing and new people are coming. But seeing as every one that moves away, I've always been close to. I've noticed through the pass years of my life, every one that is close to me is leaving. Even my lover has to leave for a month...Maybe forever. I didn't know why this thought, the seeing of my eyes had come but when I did notice, it only depressed me. That somday, I will be alone, alone and depressed. I know predicting such thing would be tragic and stupid..but seeing as I will left, I wonder what happens next..If every I loved so dearly was gone, what would happen. I always wondered that. I always wondered if my self would leave my self just because no one else could leave me..What happens to a person who has no one to love anymore, no friends, nor family, nor anything. I would probably die of heart fail of long lasting depressing that would shut down my body, but seeing as I would be alone, my soul wouldn't become happy..nor depressed, if I was alone..I don't think I would have any feelings at all. I would be..plan, dull, a monster..a robot. To be alone..can only do so much..but can it change you into something else..that's not you? So you can no longer be alone. Does the brain run so desperately to attract attention not to be alone? I might find out one day, although being alone in my state of mind..is hard.
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