You're 7 now, and I can't believe how things have changed. I'm bored and today was a bad day, so why not type some things into this little box. You're 7 now, even just last year i remember the terror in your voice teh days before i pulled you out of public school, not for yourself but rather for me, because you had to witness what hate really was. I'm really glad things have changed since then. Although your school hates that we are a part of it (Again for my sexuality) I'm glad it's finally somewhere you can be accepted. I know it's hard sometimes because you aren't like the other kids, and being different at such a young age is hard, but i know you make me proud every single day. Don't ever let anyone put you down, don't listen to the names they call you, and if they say something about me just block it out. I'm your dad and i'll always be your dad, you don't have to protect me. The best nights of my life are the nights where you let down your little curtain of toughness and you still fall asleep next to me in bed, or you make me crawl up in your bunk beds and lay with you. I used to hate being a father, i compared myself to your grandfather and the thought that i could be like him just scared me to death. I've gotten over that now, and i'm so glad that i have. I want you to know that without you here right now, without you here in my life i woudn't be anything. You have shown me who i am and what i need to be. Every time something bad happens you are why i hang on. I wouldn't be half the man i was without you. I have never been prouder than the moment you walked across that little stage to recieve your awards. I know i sound geeky and like overly loving towards you, and i know i'm bad at expressing that, but i just needed to say them somewhere else. I hope you have never doubted how i feel about you, i'm so proud of you Ayden. Thank you for all of the mistakes you have corrected in my life. I love you. (12/1/14)
 drummerdudeisme · Tue Dec 02, 2014 @ 04:22am · 0 Comments |
