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Hello. This is my first ever blog-ish thingy. so give me a break.
I have traveled the world. I will admit that. But something that seems to have changed me, was when i was staying in California. Astride a horse, I couldn't help but realize, just how empty my life is. Sure, im in high school. And sure i have friends. But.....it seems that i have no reason at all to be here. There's no point to my excistence. Sure i love to cook and i want that to be my lifes ob. But, im just so, well, there. I can stand in the corner, and no one would notice me. Im just there, nothing special, nothing diffrent. Im not a wall flower, im not pretty. Im just, well, smart i guess. that and i can cook pretty well. What is my meaning? And don't tell me about the grand plan s**t.