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Randomness Wins.
Well, like the title says, randomness wins. It always. It is the epic of all epics. No matter what, you can always fall back on randomness. So, that's what this journal is about. I'll do, just, whatever.
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Soo, um, yeah. First blog post. Woohoo? Whatever. These'll probably be pretty short, just explaining what's up and how I'm feeling. And they probably won't be long. But yeah...
So, tomorrow, I leave for the weekend, to go to a Church retreat. One fact revealed about me: I'm a Catholic. A pretty devoted one, at that. I've been looking forward to this retreat for months now, and it's finally here. I'm so excited~
I've been feeling pretty down for a while- part of the reason I disappeared for a while. The reason is that my good online friend, one I've gotten really close to, and text(ed) almost 24/7, was punished. It's been about two weeks since I've talked to her, I guess. I lost track, really, because I didn't want to think about her. But the biggest thing I'm upset for is that, the night before she was punished, she told me she wanted to call me- something we rarely do, because she doesn't like her voice. Well, I basically told her no. She would have been upset, but she wasn't, because I told her I was having a very emotional conversation with my sister, and I couldn't break away from it. Well, the big thing there is that I lied. Well, partly. I was talking to my sister, but it wasn't so heart-to-heart. We were joking around and stuff. So, my last chance to talk to my friend for the WHOLE SUMMER, and I lied my way out of it. You may or may not know how horrible I feel about it... I don't know why I'm recounting it, it's only making me feel worse, really...
But yeah, another big thing here is that I can't show my hurting. My mom knows I talk to this girl a lot, but she doesn't know how emotionally attached I am to her, and if I shared it with my family, I'd be ridiculed by my sisters, and that'd only add to the pain...
So yeah... Feeling pretty bad right now... Guess I'll trudge on...
 Miromi-Rah · Fri Jun 26, 2009 @ 05:21am · 0 Comments |
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