I'm really confuzed right now. i always am. I don't know what i like to do and it seems all i ever do is pretend like i enjoy life, when really i'm sad and lonely on the inside.

i did an expirement where i tried acting like myself for an entire day. and well, it sucked. i didn't have anything to do, but i wasn't bored.

The only thing that brought me great pleasure was always doing something new. i think thats what is me. doing something new makes me happy, i hope there's enough new stuff in the world for me!!! my god, i might just make it!