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as i lay awake in my bed, i listen to the rain falling onto my roof. the sound of the rain soothes me, but not enough to put me to sleep. oh what a nother sleepless night i have to endure once again. tossing and turning with only my thoughts to keep me sane, but just barly. i have lost ways to keep myself sane. im running out of ideas. maybe thats why i cant sleep? because im waiting for that moment of insanity to reach me? i stare up at the ceiling. i love the darkness that surrounds me. i find myself waking up to the bright mornings, wishing for the darkness to come once more...do i belong in darkness, to sleep forever? to stay away from everyone i love? to not cause them more pain? or do i belong in the light? the light that i curse before i go to sleep?