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FireflameKitty
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Venting
God I feel like such a b***h! Whenever my boyfriend goes over to his best friends I hardly get to talk to him which drives me a bit nuts... sweatdrop Pathetic I know... And at night I'm used to getting to curl up in his arms and fall asleep but when he is there I'm lucky if I get him for 5 mins on the phone before I go to bed. And try as I may I cant hide the hurt in my voice and I feel really bad about it. Because he then feels bad because he upset me and then he cant have fun with his friends. And I hate the fact that I do it... It makes me feel like a b***h and makes me cry because I'm so mad at myself for upsetting him and spoiling his fun... I wish I dealt better with not getting to talk to him much... And I wish that I could hide the hurt and was better at not ending up being bitching with him when I shouldnt on nights like this...
I can hear him in my head hanging up the phone and yelling "God I hate it when she does that!!" As to if he actually does that or not I don't know but I know he does in my head. Which makes me feel even worse and makes me cry... crying
Blah.. I think I feel a bit better after getting all that out there...
If you read this Love... I'm sorry that I do it. I really don't mean to.
I love you. heart Sometimes far more than is good for either of us...





 
 
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