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I haven't written in here for a while.
And it's not like anyone's going to read it.
But I'm bored.
So ******** you, c**k-smoker.

I went to the doctors on Wednesday.
Diagnosis: My Thyroid is hardcore under-active.
And that's why I've been so depressed and crying and what not.

So I have these new pills, they're supposed to help.
Which I'm hoping like ******** they do.
Considering I can't ******** stand feeling like this.
Plus, all the crying I've been doing is actually making me really sick.
I also can't sleep, barely if at all.

It's honestly the most horrible feeling I've ever had in my entire life.

It's raining though.
I like the rain.
It's peaceful.

Two more days until Rob and I go to Ottawa.
I'm pretty excited.
Maybe that will get my mind off of things.
But I'm still worried that I'll ruin the entire trip.
I'll burst out into tears like I have been.

I try not to cry around Rob.
Last time I did, he blamed himself.
And I really don't want that.
I don't want that at all.