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ahh finnaly, actually it was over 3 days ago and the passing was easy with all the distractions. i was working the day of the full moon, and then my relatives from montana were there when i got home. and shortly after that i went to the coffee bar. distractions all night. however 3rd day after has it's trials to. i almost re-awakened ice. i didn't but i almost did. it's kinda scary knowing what he is. i thought about it a lot while i was working. he did have his perks and even now i think about re-awakening him. i just might. but not soon, not with relatives in town....

i just learned a new chi attack... er well kinda. i can't use it now cus i threw my arm yesterday. but i know it. i can feel it's effect (testing ability through the sore muscle) again i feel the need to push myself. as far as what the curse is doing to aron chi i have no idea but i feel it's made him stronger. back to me though.....
i know what i'm looking for in a woman now redface ok well not really but it is something i would like. someone who i can spar with lol. ok not really but i have a dire need to test myself, and really i don't care if it's a girl or not. but i really gotta know something about my self, i don't know what it is, if it's my strength i need to test or if it's my honor.... but i gotta know it. it can't be someone i know, or at least have met on good terms, i would never be able to strike them. it can't be someone who would hold back, and it (in all honesty chivilry sux because of this) be a girl because there's just no way in *pardon me* hell i would ever hit a girl no matter how mad i was. not even aron does that with his curse. (remember he's not a were any more.) and naturally it has to be someone with a solid state... I.E. not aron.
the new technique though brings to light an old fear..... ambition. my ambition. knowing what this technique does i fear it. even knowing it causes me to wonder if i've crossed the boundry of my own saying "un-finished knowledge is the most depraved thing the world has ever had". i know that there's nothign i can do to stop learning such things but how can i make sure the knowledge is finished? "if i don't know how do i know if i know it or not." . the incompletion of any new technique is a great danger to myself and the people around me. when i was first learning a palm strike i nearly killed a man by shoving his nose bone into his brain. and again when i was learning a sword technique ,using a fake sword, i nearly cut off my finger (yes a rounded wooden walking stick almost cut off my finger. not to mention all th pulled muscles and hyper extended joints, my wrist that i can now dislocate on command, kicking my self in the face, my eye sight, and my hearing..... i'm a hazard to myself and thoes around me because of un finished wisdom. i need guidance but my parents think i'm a lunatic and the only people who know half of what i know are lunatics any ways, thoes who think the world is just a stair case. either that or their just plain stupid (*cough cough* zach who now believes budism and is bent on learning how to throw fire balls *rolls eyes*) where can you go when the only one that knows is you? and the sad part is i don't know what i know i just know it.... confusing i'm sure. well i'm out of words and i'm tired also....

and the random premanition for the day is: he's closer then you might think, stick around and watch the flood....

it's true tonight is the 10/9 day mark to full moon. and i can feel it getting close...... let's see.... this is about..... a year and 3 months from the time i was infected to the time i was treated. and i still feel the effects of it...... it's kinda strange, but i'll talk about it since i know "SOME" readers are interested, or at least act like it. let's see where to start. about the time it got dark out i noticed my skinn felt like it was holding my blood inside me, like my entire body was swelling. a little later i trimmed my nails VERY short and now their a comfortable length. my back is starting to hurt when i stand up to straight, or slouch to much (as the muscle tone increases it forces my back to the right arc.) if it's 11 now then i know that my muscles have become corded and my hight will have increased from my legs. (hight increase even with me not being able to stand up straight.) it's about half an inch taller over all but of actuall limb growth i can't say. my teeth are beginning to grow muscles (my eye teeth that is.) for flexing. my eyes are beginning to reject my contacts, which means i'll have to take them out but i'll only be able to see in the dark pretty much. as tonight isn't a significant number my sanity will stay with me but about the 3rd night it'll get bad and i'll get ugly. right now it feels like i can't get enough air. if i were to discribe my wer-stage now it would probably be a young pup in the spring, playful and still learning my own strength. ok i'm gonna go play marrowind now.....
P.S. if any one wants to spar right now i'd go for it.

ok i lost my ambition really fast due to eh fact that it's late at night so i'm gonna make this quick.
i like just about anything you can think of that's not dis comfortable.
i al most wet my self on my first rollercoaster and haven't been one one since but I am so ready for it.
i like cartoons even though i'm "too old for them" you should get used to it.
I love girls, yes it's true i'm a ladies man. be aware: caution may engage in the practice of flirting and hitting on of girls. in some sever cases disscussion of girls.
I do things that make little sence to the world around me, i make jokes that nobody gets and i talk to myself (though generally i wount type it out)
FF7 AND ZELDA WERE THE GREATEST GAMES OF ALL TIME, that's not an opinion, that's a fact.
my RP charicter is Elric, his blood brother Alphon, his sister Arunell, and his alter ego Lord A'malen'en (who is actually me, and the rightfull king) all travel around avoiding the tyranical king (my brother, though not in the real world), stopping alphons lunatic were curse (which were all infected with), and doing other stuff, that is too much to explain.alphon sounds like he's sufffering from bi-polar disorder. Elric's name is an elven swear for a male sex toy, we don't know his real name. Arunell is the dutchess but her name means princess. I am the wisest (duh) ok not really, i'm just sorta there.
i dig god, no really. i'm a total right wing anarkist christian whos got a temper when it comes to religeon. but if you can get through all the spiritual hype then i have a lot to say... that's worth hearing.
i'm often impatient, i'm sorry. remind me that i'm impatient. if i ignore you it means i'm foolin around.
i know a form of kung foo, only i know. because i'm making it up as i go. but boy am i one mean dog in a fight. and i still respect enough that there's gonna be no groin kick.
ok i'm going to bed now cus it's 12 30 and the words are starting to look mispelled.
good night