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Everyone was watching her as she stepped out of the school. Her hair was brushed to perfection and her make up was done freshly that morning, why in the world would she step out in the rain? She smiled gently and held out her hand first. She felt the gentle pitter-patter of it against her freshly painted nails. It was about time she let go of this image and finally do something free.
Nobody saw how well she hid it, but her world was crashing down. She went home and did exactly what she was told, and she listened to everyone around her criticize her, she was an open target. It’s not bad enough that her family had to move her completely away from her old house, but they had to constantly act like it was worse than the other house. She was just getting tired.
Finally she put her full body out into the rain and ran. She ran as if there was someone out there chasing her. She screamed. She cried. She felt amazed at what she had done. She just walked out of the middle of her English class and walked down the steps. No teachers asked questions, they just watched her as she walked through confidently and strong, with a glint in her eyes.
She still wasn’t satisfied with this, she was laying down in the tennis courts, watching it hit her. She was now fully soaked and let’s just say she had gotten numb from how long she was out there. She looked at the lightning as it etched the sky, making a story in front of her. The sun broke through the clouds and she realized why she hadn’t been happy.
Him. He was such an a*****e sometimes. The way he’d look at her deeply and just make her melt, the way he’d driven her insane… and the way he was her confidence. He just made her feel right. He’d hold her up on this high pedestal while everyone else just watched. She’d feel amazing and lost in his blue eyes, but then, he seemed to forget her. That’s what she hated. But she knew that eventually he would notice that she had been there all along. All the nights he’d wished she’d just left him alone, and all the times he had to deal with a death. She’d always be there.
He loved putting her first, in front of everyone else, but he had left her a few nights back. Why? She didn’t know. All she knew was that she missed him, and she was being driven into insanity. She instantly felt like she was missing a part of herself.
She felt someone’s hand on her arm and she sighed. She knew they would come and make her get back to class. She just knew it. But when she turned, she saw his chocolate brown hair and smiled. He whispered to her ‘You look a little more relaxed then usual and then he just picked her up and spun her around, while she let the warm rain hit her face.
 LawlOSaurusRex · Sat Nov 24, 2007 @ 04:17am · 0 Comments |
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She ran.
She ran and ran until she couldn't breathe anymore. Her feet were being tickled as the grass pranced around with the wind. The wind was a friend today; it gently made her long, flowing hair dance around her as well as her skirt, which happened to be much like her hair.
She waited.
Waited for him, as always. Would he actually come to meet her this time, or would it be another heartbreak as she sat, watching the sky go from a light, pasty blue to a midnight black?
Minutes passed, possibly hours, she didn't know, she wasn't counting anymore. Time was only an object, and a very boring one at that.
Finally, the twinkling stars had started to appear, one by one.
No one had come. Nothing did. Nothing but the menacing loneliness and the breeze, making her hair swoosh in the wind.
As she looked around, everything had fallen.
The world was collapsing and swirling into black.
With one last scream, the lights came on...
[[I found this in an old journal of mine;; wondering if anyone would read it.]]
~`Emmazine`~
LawlOSaurusRex · Mon Nov 12, 2007 @ 03:25am · 0 Comments |
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Let's Get High on a Saturday Night! <333 |
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{♥ All of my tears will Air Dry ♥}
Hokay then oddballs of all ages
Yesterday I went to a friends party, and this is how it went.
Okay, so we all showed up and had our Halloween coustumes on (What was I, you ask? Well, I was the Princess of Darkness riding a Flamingo) and we started doing random things. Well, really random if you count what happened during the movie we were watching.
We're all sitting in her living room watching Rent while I'm using Nakita's (The EskEMO) fishing pole to hunt Sophie's (Marge Simpson) Wig, and while I'm doing that my friends are all there singing "How We Gonna PAAAAAAY How we gonna PAAAAAAAY How we gonna PAAAAAAY LAST YEAR'S RENT!" and then Nakita looks up and says "Emma, why are you making out with my pole?" to which everyone turns around and starts laughing at me, because I'm sitting there, crying and laughing so hard at poking a big blue wig, and no, I don't know what I've been smoking lately, I was just really really bored.
Later We did Pumpkin Carving, how fun was that, I'm sitting there, with this GIANORMOUS knife in my hand and stabbing my pumpkin... because I'm pretending it's Mrs.Blaha, my least favorite teacher, when I suddenly get this idea to make a Bloody Chainsaw Masacre of her, and when we were voting, I said "NUMBER TEN'S THE BLODDY CHAINSAW MASACRE OF MRS.BLAHA!!!" and half the people put their hand's up.. it was funny.
So yeah... Whatever.
~EmmyLou~
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{♥ Teddy Geiger is my Hero ♥}
LawlOSaurusRex · Mon Oct 23, 2006 @ 03:10am · 1 Comments |
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{♥ All of my tears will Air Dry ♥}
Yeah, I haven't updated in a while... Sue me. Anyways, what's going on with Miss Emma you ask? Well, I made it into Singsation, which is a show choir at my school, I was aiming for Ovation, but I guess I can deal being in a room with a ton of 7th graders that sing like dying cats and don't know what low notes actually are (Hello, I'm an Alto 2), and this year, we get Fricking SOLOS I mean, how coolio is that? I'm determined to get one, and if I don't, I'll kill Mr.Dyrland. And I wanna say CONGRATS to everyone else who made show choir that's actually important in my life, not that any of you know who those people are.
AAAAAAAND, We're doing ITBS (Iowa Test of Basic Skills) Testing, and it sucks big time, because I have to be in the same room with Mrs.Blaha for over an hour each day, at least she's gotten over the whole 'GRR I'M A b***h' thing. We don't have A/A either.. which saddens my heart </33, now I can't check on my A/A's sea monkeys (DO NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE ASK ME ABOUT THEM), and I love them, I also hope that we have Choir this week, so I can stand next to the bitches in my section who made it into Ovation and be like "Ha, you made Ovation, you suck" and just sing loudly at them, it'll be fun.
Well,
CHEEMO!
(P.S. I LOVE TEDDY GEIGER!!!!!)
heart heart heart heart heart
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{♥ Teddy Geiger is my Hero ♥}
LawlOSaurusRex · Mon Oct 09, 2006 @ 11:42pm · 0 Comments |
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It's Story Time! ^-^ (Next Avatar Arena Submission) |
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'Why is she always in the spotlight,' she thought. 'Just once I'm going to be in the spotlight... that is.. her spotlight'
She put on a wig resembling her best friend's hair and changed her contacts so her eyes were now a violet color... no longer the deep blue full of emotion that she wanted to hide from. She carefully changed her outfit to a dark black shirt and skirt, gloves, boots, glasses (yes with contacts), and put her pandy on her back.
'Her pandy.....' Emma thought 'It was always her favorite... I shouldn't be doing this... but I guess it's too late now...'
She slowly walked onstage and faced the roaring crowd, she was finally going to be singing in front of an audience.... it was a bit silly... but it was her dream. She had been outshadowed by her best friend since she was four years old... and she couldn't take it anymore, she was always not good enough... but now it was her time...
She slipped on her lucky hat and looked out at the crowd.... wondering if this was really worth it.
LawlOSaurusRex · Fri Jun 30, 2006 @ 03:31am · 0 Comments |
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Life in a new Home.... stupid Parents! |
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Okay, this is what's happened so far, My family decided to move so ta da! We're in our new house, I mean, I'm still able to go to my school and hang out with friends but, I can't do some things that I could never be able to do here. I can no longer sneak out of the house when I'm angry and just run off to the Blue Strawberry and argue with the guy behind the counter about how it's not a restaurant, I can't Sing as loud as I want while listening to my CD player and walking around on my 2 acres of hilly land, and i can't really do anything anymore. I mean.... my dog doesn't even like this house... He s**t on the carpet before me and my brother woke up, and then a few minutes ago he peed on the carpet, I mean... what more of an explanation do you need for not moving? Now I have stupid neighbors... and my parents can't even get along for one night without even arguing, and my neighbors are assholes and I think I'm about to be driven into insanity...
Please Comment
~Emma~
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LawlOSaurusRex · Tue Jun 27, 2006 @ 09:01pm · 0 Comments |
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I can't Believe you're gone...even though I don't know you |
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Well, this is how it's been, I went over to Sophie's... and the next day I figure out that you're gone, I didn't know you, I'm sorry I didn't. How could you do that to everyone? How could you just go off and swim in that lake... even though you don't know how? Why didn't you cry for help? Just....why? I talked to Taylor, she says that she was crying, I was too, I mean.... I just can't believe that it actually happened... people in our district don't die, they finish school... I can't believe it
~In honor of Someone I don't know~
~R.I.P.~
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LawlOSaurusRex · Tue Jun 13, 2006 @ 07:40pm · 0 Comments |
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Life In Chicago.... (for about 48 hours) |
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I hate Chicago so far... it's pretty boring, there are 20,000 knitters staying at our hotel for the national quilting convention.... :ROFL: my brother farted in the elevator when they were with us, it was pretty funny, and i ran into the wall of the swimming pool because one of those ladies got in front of me... now my lip is bleeding.... dumb ********... anyways, we're going to DePaul University with my brother's friend and his dad... and well... he's hott heart anyways, we were on the brown line train and they were making fun of this couple in front of them, they were cuddling and the guy had his head on the lady's shoulder, so his dad put his head on Luke's (the hot guy) shoulder and it was hilarious, we couldn't stop laughing so the lady kept on glaring at us, so yeah. Well we also went to the ESPN center, and we got to eat in front of this Ginormous T.V. and watch the Cubs game.. it was pretty awesome, so yeah, well I'm back and I just wanna say, Sorry I missed your party Kita, and Happy Birthday! heart
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LawlOSaurusRex · Mon Apr 10, 2006 @ 09:43pm · 0 Comments |
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Okay, here's what's going on now, my mom and dad won't let me go to Nakita's party on the 8th because they want to go to Chicago and see my brother's college and all that other s**t, I said, well mom you told me i could go to Nakita's birthday party on Saturday, she says, no i didn't, you never mentioned any sort of party, so now everyone in my house is yelling at me because i don't wanna go, it isn't just because of the party, i mean i really don't want to go to my brother's college because i 1) don't know anyone there but my family, which gives me more of a reason to hate it 2)I really wanted to spend time with my friends, they actually care about, unlike my family and 3) I don't really want my brother to go that far away from college, he's the only person in my family that's nice to me sometimes, my mom even rags on my for no reason. Plus we were gonna miss school, i would normally be all for it, but we're doing some really important testing that i don't really want to miss, so anyways, that's why life sucks....
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LawlOSaurusRex · Mon Mar 27, 2006 @ 09:20pm · 0 Comments |
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