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No more drama yay! My life is much more laid back now. And there is a boy involved! *gasp* I know, a boy and no drama. How could a girl get so lucky! Becuase I'm amazing like that wink and I pray a lot, so that's what's doing it.
So the moral of the story is...
PRAY, happy things follow 3nodding
 ~Synthpop~ · Sun Aug 20, 2006 @ 03:27pm · 1 Comments |
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Oh God.... I cannot believe him! |
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Ok, so I was talking to Chris last night. He was telling me how he hasn't gotten over me yet. I felt really bad. Becuase I never was really atracted to him and he evedentally thinks about me ALL the time and loves me. Usually I don't even think about him once at all during a day. redface It makes me feel horrible to know I hurt people. But see, when I hurt people they get suicidle! I never mean to hurt them either!!! So like I have all these people who are like "Oh Skyler, you have hurt me so bad. You make me not want to live anymore. You ruined my life. gonk crying " And I just sit there. Hating myself. Oh, speaking of, I had the most retarted emotinal breakdown in front of Jess and Marc. stare I was crying and stupid things like that. Jess is like "SKY! It's ok. There is nothing wrong with you. You shouldn't hate yourself." oh Jess, I try to love myself. And there are many things I do love. But to many bad things I have done. But what I don't get is why. I don't do bad things. And I would NEVER intentionaly hurt someone. surprised AAAAAAAHHHH! I ******** hate it. gonk
OK, back to Chris. I got side tracked. xp So we started talkign about Davis right. Ok, lemme explain something. Davis went on a school trip and there was this girl named Rose. Now, while me and Davis were going out he went on this trip and got together with this girl Rose. What he told me when we got back together AFTER he cheated on me was that she had kissed him while he was sleeping and she blackmailed him into forgetting me. (******** stressed ) And you know, a part of me is believing me. But in the back of my mind my bullshit detector is going off like woah. But me being the trusting person that I am believe him and go back out with that stupid ********. Then I hear that he was going to try to have sex with me and my friend Catilin at this party so I get all pissed and stop talking to him. And now we talk and all this and he's always like "I miss you Skyler, I want you back" and I'm like " I have absolutely no trust in you. I would never be with you again." so he's like w/e. Alright.... Now you know Davis. xp
So last night Chris was telling me what really happened on that trip. It figures he kissed her and he did everything. Thus, Davis lies to my ******** face. He has proved over and over again to me that he is nothign but a lying cheating whore. So what do I do? I put my face into my hands and scream. The loudest scream ever. I get up quickly and run out of my room. out of pure frustration. And what am I greeted by? some dude ripping the skin off this fish. I almost ******** threw up! I mean, it could not have been more inapropriate and disgusting. So then I go back in my room all grossed out. I sit down and continue talking to Chris. Then he informs me that Davis, yet again, was going to try to get back with me! WTF?. Aww, but I love Chris, he was all like "Skyler, please be careful. Your the last person I want to see hurt by him." He's so sweet to me. So I'm all telling him how I would never go back out with Davis. He thought it was humorus. xp But yeah, then I came to the conclusion that I HATE Davis. And I don't hate people. Trust me.... You really have to do something. I mean.... like woah. So I see him and school today, and you know what I do? c'mon guess!... yup, I gave him a hug and pretended like nothing was wrong. whee Gawd, I hate myself. I can't stand up for anything that I feel.
Ok, but on a happier note.... Chris came ot school today! He seemed not to thrilled to see me.... He was all deadish. I felt bad. Maybe he was mad that he couldn't come over to my house... I dunno. sweatdrop
And on an even better note. I think I have a crush on someone. 4laugh heart
.MUCHASGRANDELOVEYO
.Skyler heart
~Synthpop~ · Mon Jan 24, 2005 @ 11:55pm · 2 Comments |
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