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iziINSANE.
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Posted: Fri Apr 27, 2007 @ 08:19pm
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I think I've found the reason as to why I'm so forgiving. If I wasn't that way, I'd absolutely despise some people I absolutely need. Either that, or I could just care less. I've been wondering about that lately. Everybody always badmouths people they hate to me, and I just say something like, "Maybe you should be nice to them." And if asked if I have somebody who(m?) I hate, I get confused. I understand how you could hate somebody who did something horrible to you or other people, but usually it's somthing around of the lines of 'OMGZZZZ LIKE DAT b***h JUS LIEK GAEV ME A DIRTAY LOOK! OMG I HATE HER GUTZ D:<' That was a bug exaggeration, but I'm sure you get the point.
But maybe my emotions are just too mild. Well, at least the bad ones. When I'm happy, I'm usally very very happy and smilely, depending on who I'm around. But I can slip out of bad moods in the oddest ways. I just sort of forget about them. Like at lunch nowadays since Alec moved, it's pretty quiet and I usually ust stare at the floor or something with my hair in my face. But if i htink of something to talk about I get all "HAI GUYZ!" Would that be bipolar? I think I should look up the definition of that...Ew. It kinda sounds like that. Now I'm just thinking of deleting this whole thing because well...I dunno. Agh now I think I'm bipolar. Great. I don't even remember why I was posting this.
Well I do know I'm hungry. I don't want to eat though. I'll just eat a lot when I wake up tomorrow. Isn't it bad to eat before bed?
Okay so I just reread everything. Jeez talk about wall of text. Mhm so to sum this up, I need to be forgiving.
Ah but I don't want to stop typing now. I hate it when people can only see one side of the problem. Kids do it all the time at school. They whine at their teachers because they were being bad and got caught. Jeez. Just deal with it. I also hate it when they say how...I completely just lost my train of though. AGH! I should probably sleep. I'm not tired though.
I have songs stuck in my head. A couple of measures of the songs will play in my head, and the next one will start. I should probably be thinking about Pirates of the Caribbean, that's the only piece of music we're playing that I didn't get right off the bat.
Ah darn. I need to do my slave journal sometime before Monday. crying
Also something I don't like about people is how when at school or something we'll be having a discussion about something. The person happens to know 'everything' about this subject and goes on and on and on about it. But nobody cares. They just won't shut up. And they're so excited as they talk. And it's SO ANNOYING D:<
Mhm so I'm done.
But most of the time I'm just indifferent. I'm great at pretending to be happy =] If I wasn't then I'd piss people off. But I wouldn't care 'cause I'd just be indifferent about it. And soon I'd miss them and regret it and try to make amends. But sometimes I couldn't care less.
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Posted: Sun Apr 08, 2007 @ 06:29am
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I like how nobody leaves comments on my journals lol.
Anyways, I feel so stupid. I though this guy liked me. And I sort of told him. The hints were two vowels, and ends in 'e.' So he could actually think it's Jake. Lawl. Anyways, I think he likes this girl Amanda now and I feel retarded. D: I just want to go back and never have brought up the subject. I don't like relationships much anyways, it's better just to stay friends.
Speaking of friends, I really miss my best guy friend, Alec. He moved to Orlando. It's really weird without him. I only have Travis to talk to in science, and he isn't much of a talker. I don't have anybody exciting and spontaneous to walk with to lunch. We have nobody to be the center of attention at lunch, 'cause all of us girls are secretly in love with him. Lol. Now Thomas talks to me. He's really rude though, and immature. But I miss Alec! There's only Emily to laugh with in math now. It's just so weird. I don't like it. It puts me in a depressed haze for half of lunch until there's something to talk about besides our missing beloved. D:
Agh. Guys. They're causing my misery. Lol. Well, I guess I should go shower so I don't have to do it when I get up at 8 for mass. I hate how my parents make me go even when they know I don't believe in god. My friend thinks that athiests believe that when we die, we turn into trees. That's reincarnation, and I believe the Muslims think that. I just think we die. I sorta believe in souls. Not really though. Kinda. I don't think they go off into something else when our body dies, though.
So. I shall sleep. Goodnight.
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iziINSANE.
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iziINSANE.
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Posted: Sun Apr 01, 2007 @ 03:53pm
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Mmkay. So. I'm home alone...I think. Zach might be here.
On Friday, Austin came over. Maddie and Nuneya kept annoying us, so we hid form them in Keegan's bedroom, because mine has no door, and I share it with Maddie. So while he was shooting Keegan's dart guns at me, my dad called and we had to go put away groceries. It was stupid. D:< And then I had to make dinner. I was like, WTF? I have a friend overrrrrr T_____T
Okay so Saturday, we cleaned for Winter's party. Pretty much the whole damn day. Agh. I hate cleaning. I was gonna go to the mall with Emily and Dale, but Emily couldn't go, and I don't have Dale's number so I had to leave him a message on myspace. He hasn't been on yet. T__T I really wanted to go. So instead I went to WInter's party. I talked to some of her friends, and was introduced to them. Not as her little sister but, as her baby sister becuase I'm 2 inches taller than her. =] Around 9, we went to the fair at RHS. It was fun. I went with mi padre and Keegan. The first ride we rode took a long time. The second one we were on, the power stopped. It was sort of like a pendulum(sp?) and so we kept swinging. I was laughing and feeling sick when the lights l went off. Keegan said "Izi! The power went off!" And I had thought I had hit my head and passed out or something, so I siad 'No it didn't!' ...But it did. Lawl. We kept swinging until the power came back on and the guy could stop the ride. And then we went on the one were you stand up around the edges of the thing, and it spins really fast. That one was awesome. =] After that we rode the 'scary' ride. XD It was HILARIOUS! We were laughing the whole time.
And as for today...all I've done is eat a bowl of Rice Crispies.
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Posted: Wed Dec 20, 2006 @ 09:08pm
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iziINSANE.
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iziINSANE.
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Posted: Tue Dec 19, 2006 @ 09:29pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 19, 2006 @ 08:32pm
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