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Love slipping away. Fading shorty. Until there is nothing left. Nothing left...... Theres a war inside. Chaos all around. But, maybe its hard to see it. Because everyone is wearing these fake smiles. The smiles that mean nothing. Nothing except to make someone feel better. The smiles that are not sencere at all. The smiles that distinguash the truth.
The truth of all there is. The simple truth is hidden beyond the lies. Too deep to dig up. Is it possible for things to get worse. Of course! Much worse. Worse then you can imagine. Its like a far off dream. A dream that will never be reached. Like a far off memory. Fading in the wind. This war, this chaos inside of me... it is endless. And hopeless beyond all hopes.
Theres a feeling inside. Something I can't indentify. When its dark out. And stars and darkness fill the sky, all hope has not risen like its s'pose to. For this life. This life is a lie. This lie is another illusion from the real deal. Though, how I wish I could be somewhere else. Where I'm not waiting for the sky to fall. Where these signs mean something other then defeat.
Why I bring this up. Its the feelings burried inside. Deep, deep inside me. The pain may pause, but it will never stop. But, whats pain to me anyways. Pain doesn't hurt. Not if its the only feeling I've ever known. My heart breaks with each passing moment. Why, you ask. Why, because you reject me. Or, maybe, its just you don't want anything to do with me anymore. Love... Its over-rated. Yet, I continue to try. Is it hopeless? I'm starting to believe that love is an illusion like my life, my lie. But, I can't help to not live it.
Even though I know my pain will come back again, I can't stop. I'm out of control. But like that means anything anymore. Things are going too fast. Too fast for my likeing indeed. For when I try to graps it, I miss. When I finally grasp you, you slip out of my hands like water. And its my heart thats broken. I'm waiting for the sky to fall. At any moment, now. I'm waiting for a sign.
I love you, but you push me away. These tears are ones of sorrow. Your breaking my heart. Prehaps without even knowing it. I love you, my dear. More than you know. I guess I can't seem to tell you. Tell you how you hurt me so. I love you, can't you see? Are you blind? Are you really blind? If you knew how I felt. Maybe its just me. Maybe its a one-sided love. Don't you understand? These tears I shed is for you. All for you. I wish you could understand. Or is that too much for me to ask. Is it too greedy? Take my heart, like it matters anyways.
I'm sorry for my words. Words can be crueller then action. They could kill more then knives and guns. My words aren't important anyways. You may not see it, but I'm dying inside. I love you... Thats all that matters. Even if your love is not true... I'll always be there for you. I love you. My tears are turning to ashes. My heart only breaks when I'm breathing. My dreams are only broken in my dreams. Love is slipping away.... Oh, how its gone away.
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