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Ugh. I've not had the best of mornings today...And thats what's spurring this rant about my college form tutor! stressed

She's really nice...Half of the time.

It's just when she has the smallest, most teeny little beef with me that she completly ignores me all of the time! scream

I would understand if she just told me that I had pissed her off! gonk

But, NOOOO! She just has to blank me all of the bloody time. I havn't even done anything majourly bad. I didn't do one homework. When she didn't even announce it as a proper homework! My computer broke last week so how the hell was I supposed to do it on time anyway without my hand catching fire!? crying

I thought she was okay after that, cosidering I gave it in the next chance I had. BUT NO, AGAIN!! I neglected to hand in one form thats not even due to be finished until the 30th of this month! So she's blanking me again! What the hell is her deal!? If she has a problem! Bloody well tell me and try to find out why it happened other than shoving me aside! I'm a genuine person! I have legitimate reasons for not doing stuff I'm told but I'm never given a chance to show it. I'm just persecuted. cry

So, you know what? Sod it. If she wants to have a problem with me, she bloody well can. She just better not expect me to be nice to her for too much longer. stressed

It's coming along slowly...I just need to get some decent background pictures and stuff and it should be good to go!

I just wish that I was on my computer instead of this crappy one -_-;;

It dosn't even have sound! >_< So I can't listen to music while I work! crying

Nothing's happening in BOTH!!! gonk

The Overlord is getting very bored sitting on his hiney doing nothing all day every day! crying

I'm supposed to be doing work...But I don't know what I'm doing! Lord help me this isn't good... confused

So now I am slowly going to slip into the realms of randomness!

Greif: What? By putting all of the characters your using on Gaia into one coverstation? You call that random?

Xander: It could be, if he tried hard enough.

Black Snake: KILL THEM ALL!!!

Leon: gonk Help me! The ribbon-sword wants to kill me! crying

Endo: *sighs* You are all so...Common.

Greif: I'll common you in a minute!

Xander: Chance'll be a fine thing.

Endo: Promises, promises.

Fel-Iron: Aaaaand, relax!

Leon: ...I'm confused...

And so are you all, I'm guessing...Enjoy! whee

...Thats right. Today, at 5:30PM...I have to...Go and see...A...NURSE! >_<!!!

I'm quivering in my baggy overdyed trousers. Apparantly she wants to check and see how my athsma is doing but it's fine! They KNOW it's fine! I feel it's all a consipiracy. Mum's working so I have to go alone...My theory is that she'll lull me into a false sense of security and then BAM!!! I'll be dead! Thats it! Game Over for The Overlord. crying

...I'm so scared! I was turned into a vampire by a nurse a few days ago, who knows what this one will do to me! And this time I'll be in her territory >.> <.< ...I'm so skrewed...And before you pick up on the innuendo, NOT LITTERALLY! >_<!!!

...I suppose this would be a good time for me to remind everyone of my irrational fear of nurses. ,_,

Me tells ya. When your 4 minutes late for class and you have to charge in the blistering heat to get to your lesson and make sure your not any later...Takes a lot out of you! I'm surprised I even made it to the lesson at all! >.<

Oh well, here I am. Still alive and dieing a slower and more painful death than I would have outside stressed Oh well, what can you do? I'm sure I'll live as long as I keep the pwnage rolling. xD;

SHHH!!! I'm supposed to be working...>.> <.<... wink

Ugh, here I am in the final lesson of the day...I'm well in excess of my body's maximum temperature and I can feel my innards boiling over as we speak. -_-;;

Not only that, but I'm bored as all hell. I have to wait for ages to let my 3D model render just to find out that the video file it's exported to is corrupted! >.<!!! So I tried again...And It was corrupted again! Today just seems to have gone slow too. The uber late night last night probably hasn't helped my mood either. I've gotten all tetchy and paranoid. ._.;;; Not to mention tired xD;

Another thing bogging me down is this coming Saturday where I have to go to a party to celebrate my cousins marrage. I'm happy for her, I really am! I love my cousin and she deserves to be happily married and I know the guy she's marrying is a complete dude and wont steer her wrong. The only problem is...I hate partys! Dx Everyone gets drunk and ignores me unless I do somthing ditzy (not rare), then I become a laughing stock. T__T But I have to go because I havn't seen anyone on my dads side of the family for ages! I only got invited through sheer co-incidence! I saw my cousin at the sweet shop in town and we could barely recognise eachother.

I don't wanna go, but at the same time I really do...I suppose it's the fear of being ignored again like I usually am ,_,

Oh well, I guess I just have to be thankful that it's not dinner with my stepdad, his mother and his brother. Now that's attention I really DON'T want. -_-;; (I'm not the biggest fan of my stepdad and his family, to say the least).

Okay, I'm going to boil for another half an hour before I'm finally released...*collapses*

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Is anybody listening?
Can they hear me when I call?
I'm shooting signals in the air,
'Cause I need somebody's help
I can't make it on my own,
So I'm givin' up myself
Is anybody listenin', listenin'?

I've been stranded here and I'm miles away
Making signals hoping they save me
I lock myself inside these walls
'Cause out there I'm always wrong
I don't think I'm gonna make it
So while I'm sitting here on the eve of my defeat
I write this letter and hope it saves me

Is anybody listening?
Can they hear me when I call?
Shooting signals in the air
'Cause I need somebody's help
I can't make it on my own
So I'm givin' up myself
Is anybody listenin', listenin'?

I'm stuck in my own head and I'm oceans away
Would anybody notice if I chose to stay?
I'll send an S.O.S. tonight
And wonder if I will survive
How in the hell did I get so far away this time?
So now I'm sitting here
The time of my departure's near
I say a prayer please, someone save me

I'm lost here
I can't make it on my own
I don't wanna die alone
I'm so scared
Drowning now
Reaching out
Holding on to everything I love
Crying Out
Dying now
Need some help

Is anybody listenin'?
Can they hear me when I call?
Shooting signals in the air
I need somebody's help
I can't make it on my own
I'm givin' up myself
Is anybody listenin'?

S.O.S - Good Charlotte

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I've finally reached the 10000 gold marker through stuff sellage and much postage! ...Too bad it'll be gone as soon as I get 13000...Dark Cape...Here I come...Hehehe...MWAHAHAHAHA!!!

Hehe, I've been posting like a rabid little post-monkey these past few days, so I used the gold I acumualted on stuff for my overlord outfit! Chuffed! ^^