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ok so this is goin to sound extremly crazy and you probably goin to think i need to go into a mental hospital but im deadly serious when i say this ok...

i have never told anyone this but my whole entire life i have felt like im never alone.. like someone is always there watching me... sometimes it feels like a good presence others i have to go find someone to be with me im so terrified... i dont know what it is and i dont know if i want to know... maybe i have spirits following me.....

when i was about 5 i remember staying up one night in my bed scared and looking out my door into the hall and seeing something sitting in my door way.. 12 years later i cant remember what it looked like but i know i was scared to death...

and another weird thing for the longest time after that night i never had another nightmare in my life till this year... i have horrible dreams almost ever night now the nights i think i dont its just because i cant remember anything about my dreams..

so whats following me?? Guardian amgels and demons?? maybe god and the devil themselves are at my back every momenet of everyday... who knows.... i just know that sometimes i really wish the bad ones would leave..



if you have any comments on this please feel free to express them i could use help on dealing with this stressed