I’m going out to eat at a Brazilin restaurant tonight with my family and my little sisters boyfriend family…..I don’t know how to feel about that.
On the one hand free food,
On the other it reminds me that I'm a collage student living at home. confused I feel like I should be, well I don't know, living in on my own right now or in a dorm. I’ve head collage is the time for personal growth and yet living at home…..I don’t feel like I’m growing up inside at all.
I want to move out but I have no clue what I want to do with my life. You know it weird. I guess it do to the fact that my parents are a bit over protective of me. On the one hand I love them for that and love what they’re trying to do but on the other hand I feel like there hiding me from the real world. I mean I know when I go out there I’m going to fail, and I know my parents don’t want me to. I certainly don’t want to fail but I can’t help but recall that quote, you know the one that goes “you grow from your mistakes”.
I guess what I’m trying to say is I feel like such a losser. I want to live on my own but as far as collage work and work goes, I can’t seem to find my muse. Honestly beside Gaia nothing seems to interest me. Honestly I rather sleep and spend my time writing then doing anything else. I think I’m either depressed or addicted to the Internet. Either way life for me really seems to be going nowhere fast. I’ve got to get out of this house; hell renting an apartment and going to community collage is even better then this.
I so need to find my muse.
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