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Don't laugh at me please. i know im a retard.
Tora17....
Epicly loves me!!! : D Live with it.

Hi
Um... I got nothing...

Questions and Anwsers
Who am I ? What am I ? I wish the answers were as simple as mathematic equations where there is always an answer. I wish finding out my answers were as simple as pressing buttons and getting an exact no questions to ask answer. I suppose nothing is truly that simple, something or someone can't just give you the right answers. You have to work and earn those answers, and even then they may not be right but, it makes a light which helps you see the real answers you need. Nothing is as simple as we wish it could be but, as we strive and work so very hard for these answers we learn more and become more grateful and understanding of the answers we get. I hope to find my answers some day...

Frustation
I swear sometimes ...... Well my aunt and uncle are getting a divorce and every time my uncle calls my mom cries and I hate hearing it because after it took a year my family is back to a some what normal pace in life. I wanted to scream at him telling him not to call ever again, that he was a huge b*****d for making my mom cry so many times, that he is a a** for leaving my aunt when he knew what he would be getting into. For doing all the s**t that he has done to my aunt, my mom and my family that he needed to just leave our family and never to return, I wanted to hang up on him.I wanted to say "Yes she's here let me get her for you" and then hang up but I know in the end that would only make things a lot worse and cause more problems, I'm not depressed or anything I'm just really pissed I am excited for tomorrow and the rest of the week and then this s**t happens, he just needs to stop calling, he can go hang with his weird, horrid a** friends and spare my family the torment. Sorry I know that most of you don't really care but I just really needed to vent out my stress , well I'll talk to you all later ... bye.


I'm kinda bored and lonely
Hi, as you all know its Ashley here ...... home life hasn't been to good my mom just left a few hours ago to help my aunt move in with my great aunt cause she can't live with my uncle anymore cause out of the blue he decides that he doesn't want to be with her when he knew what would happen when he married her. My mom has been crying a lot and it been making me angry and sad, I also have been stressed cause I had to stop being president of art club cause I felt that I wasn't good enough to help everyone. I just kinda feel lonely lately cause everyone is busy and I've just been so stressed cause my grades aren't as good as before ..... I've been passing my lowest grade is a 73 and that's in math my worst subject but still I used to be a point from honor roll now I'm a point from missing merit. Hopefully after the play ends things will get a little less stressing and my grades will get back up and everything will hopefully be okay. I just really need to get out of my house but the people who I talk to mostly or go to there house are busy or in trouble or something. I think the two things that I am looking forward to are One ... spring break and Two.... Andy coming to town. Well until next time my friend Good bye.


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Some of my art
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My Elf Girl

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A Rose

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Cat and the Moon

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Vampire Girl

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Anime girl

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Wolf (Or Coyote)

A beg of you not to laugh I am only 13 I can't draw great but I try hope you like them I work hard on all my art.

Nothing
Well.... I'm bored and trying to get my questing item I am so close I can't wait mrgreen

Avi areana story
Little Amy Simon was a normal little girl skipping along trying to sell her thin mints, Do-Si-Dos, Tagalongs, Daisy Go Rounds, and Lemon Chalet Cremes so she could win a new bike. After three days of going to door to door and supermarket to supermarket ,she snapped, she went up to her next door neighbor's home Mrs. Stephen hoping she would buy a box of thin mints. Mrs. Stephen came out and smiled at her "What is it Amy" she said Amy said "Could you buy some girl scout cookies" Mrs. Stephen shook her head "I'm sorry Amy, I just bought 5 boxes from that girl over there" she said pointing to Ashley Stanley Amy's worst enemy. Amy then snapped and took her cookies and shoved them down Mrs. Stephen's throat and screamed "BUY MY COOKIES" soon Mrs. Stephen was dead from lack of air. Amy then took her wagon and through it at her she then grabbed a butcher knife from the kitchen and cut off her head holding it she looked at her grunny and asked "Was what I did was right" and the grunny said "Yes my dear it was completely all right Satin will be very happy." Amy soon went on selling girl scout cookies to people because no one thought a little 6 year old girl could have killed Mrs. Stephen but people still knew she did but, did not saying anything thinking they would die. After that everyone bought her cookies to frightened to say No and Amy won the pink flower bike. The moral of the story is always buy girl scout cookies. (Mostly thin mints)

What do I do now...
I'm confused ,hurt and saddened I want to kill anyone who crosses my path. I wana shoot myself in the leg just to make sure I'm not numb. The guy I love is there for me and I love him more because of that and so are my friends but I sit here still in my corner next to my closet crying my eyes out till I can't bring myself to cry anymore. I'm wondering what to do next once I get myself stable I fall again as the glass ground breaks under me and I am spinning in a black abase of nothing. I want to cry and scream at everyone but I know I can't cause I'm not like that ..... I feel like I'm all alone and everyone is leaving me and I am scared that everyone will leave me here in this place I don't want to be even the guy who I care most for. I am in my corner trying to stay sane but I feel like I am slipping out of sanity and going into insanity. I don't want to be in this place I finally got out but I was tripped right from under my own two feet and I went back to this dark painfully scary place where I don't know how to love or be happy just be sad angry and cry. I don't want to be in this place as I am judged for who I am not and .............. I don't know what or who I am cause once I figure that out something happens and I don't know anymore. Just don't leave me please don't leave me here all alone again cause I'm scared of going even deeper down in this black pit and doing something I don't want to do. Please don't leave me because all I hear from the world is freak monster but I'm not that I'm just me and I feel that only a few people know that and I don't want one of the only people I have ever trusted with all my heart to not hurt me leave me because I love you and I don't know what I would do without you.


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