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I just don't understand sometimes. Everything can be looking up, going great, and then, as sudden as anything, it all falls away and there is nothing inside of me but self-hatred and tears.
I want to fix so many things. I want to be myself, but in a different light. I want to make him happy like how he makes me happy.
But no matter how hard I try, everything goes to s**t.

No more emo poems from when I was fifteen.
No more love letters to girls I no longer date.
No more slash fanfiction.
No more current obsessions.
And no more Thirty Seconds To Mars fangirl posts.

This slate is clean as ********.