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I still find myself coming back to this site.
I thought I was done with it all....
I thought I could leave in peace after I made it so everyone would hate me. I thought that if no one cared, there'd be no reason to return.

...It's been a long while since I actually typed anything here.
I mean sure, I logged in every once in a while, but only to checking my evolving items.

Even then, I gave everything away anonymously.
though I'm sure they figured it out right away.
I figured if I got rid of my things, there'd be no more reasons.

....So why?
Why did I come back?
I restarted my Pein account, partly because no one really knows about it, I guess.
And why am I still putting journal entries on this one?


Why?
Why did I ever come back...?
Why did I ever come back to this wretched place...
all I did was cause people pain and run away.
so why now, did I make 20k in a single day to start remolding what I had in my Pein account?

It doesn't make any sense...
I hope it's just a passing whim. I don't want to stay in this place of the past any longer than I have to.

...I read the entry before this.
Being called a jerk by her...even after all this time, it still hurts.
I guess I never can truly forget everything...no matter how much I try.



...
I should hurry and troll and get my IP banned from here, then it won't be possible to ever be back.