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Posted: Mon Oct 23, 2006 @ 03:18pm
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Ooh la la.
Ogad. First, I was going through my journal entries and I realized that in the last few entries, I had only typed down the lyrics to some songs. Sorry those weren't really fun to read. In truth, I had been really depressed and I had been having really mixed up feelings and I was really confused and not even being able to write something myself, sharing with you what I was feeling through music was simply the best way to explain it at the moment. I think I am back to my usual self, so hopefully I'll be able to entertain you and myself a little bit more, haha.
Here's something I found on Emi's journal and after answering it, I just realized that I would indeed like to know what you bishes peepols thinkie about moi! xD So... here it goes! >w<
Just copy & paste this bish if you wish and post it as a comment along with the answers. I am really curious and taking you took the time to read this, I am guessing you're bored too, so do this thingy so you're not anymore. xD <3
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
9. Have I ever hurt you?
10. Would you hug me?
11. Would you kiss me?
12. Would you marry me?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What about me makes you happy?
25. What about me makes you sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. What's something you would change about me?
29. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
30. Do you think I would kill someone (what a creepy question...)?
31. Are we close?
32. (Here by Acer's doing) What would I be like in bed?
33. What type of girl/guy would I go for in real life?
34. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
Be as honest as possible in everything you say and see you later! I am to tired too make this journal entry longer than it already is... to me. xD <3
"Vive para amar y aprenderás a vivir."
-Anonimo
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Posted: Sun Oct 22, 2006 @ 04:24am
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Catching up with life.
It's been a while since I last made a journal entry. I haven't been in the best of moods lately and I've been having too many problems to even count.
I took the college admission test thingy today and I am confident about it. I think I did a pretty good job, even though I was so nervous and tired, I believe I passed it. People usually go around telling others how hard the test is and stuff like that, but now having taken it, I can tell you that it's all bullshit. In my opinion, the test was super easy, so lyke... don't listen to those bishes. They're just trying to scare ya! D:
I decided today that I will be majoring in English, and it's funny it took me so long to decide that. I am thinking I will join some sort of exchange student program so I can go to England, which is where I plan on moving a few years from now, so I take a look around and see what awaits me and stuff, haha.
I have been considering taking some advance courses to I can graduate sooner, which would be in about 3 months, and I will go straight to college afterwards. I feel so stupid for waiting and not doing this this past summer, which I had planned, but I guess things just turned out to be different. I will go to that school on Monday and I will get some information and stuff, and if I think it's worth it, then I will go for it. Who cares about graduation and prom, really! I will be attenting my best friend's prom, hopefully, and I will get to hang out with my old class mates and that's good enough for me, and as soon as I get a diploma, who cares how I got and where and who cares about graduation, seriously! I mean, I will still graduate from college and that's enough to satisfy me. D: Screw the world if they think otherwise. D<
I seriously felt like I was throwing my life away. Now I feel like picking up the pieces. What's left of it. I didn't think it would be, but it's so hard. I think that the past few months have been time wasted. I don't regret anything I did during that time of course, but now I just sit down and wonder, as I remember, if it was at all... worth it..
So, changing the subject, I think I will burn some cds and stuff 'cause I pretty much lost my ipod right after I got for christmas, which can suck, and I am stuck with my cd player until further notice, in other words, 'til I get monies! D:
Teh Dollie mix shall include the following:
1. Alex Syntek: Sexo, pudor o lagrimas.
2. Angelica Vale: Aqui estare
3. Ha Ash: Estes en donde estes
4. La Oreja de Van Gogh: Dulce Locura
5. La Oreja de Van Gogh: Muñeca de trapo
6. Zayra: Hoy
7. Zayra: Lluvia de mar
8. Si, Señor!: Verano del 96
9. Servando y Florentino: Una canción que te enamore
1o. Servando y Florentino: Que será de mi sin ti
11. Ricardo Arjona: Dime si él
12. Ricardo Arjona: Desnuda
13. Ricardo Arjona: Pinguinos en la cama
14. Olga Tañon: Desilusioname
15. And many, many moar! surprised heart
And those are some of my favorite spanish songs. Not all of them of course and lyke... those are just the ones I can't seem to stop listening to right now. I will have to burn like 5 cds, seriously! There are so many songs I can't seem to stop listening to right now! D: But lyke, I will burn this one first and I am going to fit in it as many songs as I can. xD Omg! Arjona! Ilu! And lyke... marry me, please! D:
Um, today I met a guy at school and lyke... he was really cute. I think I have a new crush. redface I was taking the test and I was usually one of the first ones to finish the sessions and he was sitting kind of beside me and I was lyke... -swoon, drool, swoon, sigh, gets caught!- Shite! D& I think he kind of noticed I was staring at him and stuff and lyke... I got really red and he pretty much just... smirked! I was lyke... gah! Meanie! D:
I didn't think I was over my ex, though I told him I was, 'til today. I just realized that... I don't miss him anymore. I mean, might be because we still talk once in a while and he's a really good friend and stuff, but I just... don't see him like that anymore. I used to day dream about him and whenever he would talk about his new gf, I would... just pretend I was happy and stuff, but after he hung up, tears would stream down my cheeks and I would get all sad. I... don't think that'll happen again. I don't dream about him anymore and another pretty face seems to have taken his place. Now, sitting at the cafe, waiting for me to come and stuff is... >.>! But... it's all cool now. I won't think about him anymore, or... will I...? -Sigh-
I am really inspired and I feel like writing and stuff, yet I don't even know how to start! I mean, I have this really great idea for a book, but I suck at starting it and stuff. Once I start and I am satisfied with the beginning it's easier to keep on going. I just wish that for once I had the courage and motivation to actually finish what I start. I think I would make a really good poet, but I am still working on my abilities to actually write something bigger! Longer! Better! D: <3
Well, that's all I have to say for now. I think I will go do some brain storming or something and see what I can come up with.
Bai! <3
"...desnudate...revela tu presencia de una vez..."
-Zayra
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Posted: Wed Oct 11, 2006 @ 05:56pm
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Stuck in my head.
I have loved you
Remember that blue crystal sky
The sun reflected in your eyes
You kissed me unexpectedly
The moment I just can't forget
We filled the air with promises
And sealed them up so tenderly
But life never asks you what you want
It's just gonna have its way
And sometimes it doesn't give like it takes
If I never see your face, if wings take you away
From me
And tommorow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumblin' down and crumbles
All around us
Fate turns cruel, you're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you
Don't think I'll write another letter or watch
Another pink sunset
Without thinking about you
How will I take a walk along the blue seaside or
Ever sleep at night
How will I wipe the tears from your eyes
If I never see your face, if wings take you away
From me
And tommorow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumblin' down and crumbles
All around us
Fate turns cruel, you're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you
Without a single hesitation
Without thought or reservation
Baby, I'll be waiting, even
If I never see your face, if wings take you away
From me
And tommorow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumblin' down and crumbles
All around us
Fate turns cruel, you're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 @ 12:54pm
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Dulce Locura.
Dulce Locura
Vendo el inventario de recuerdos de la historia mas bonita que en la vida escuche
vendo el guion de la pelicula mas triste y la mas bella que en la vida pude ver
vendo los acordes, la brillante melodia y la letra que en la vida compondre
vendo hasta el cartel donde se anuncia el estreno del momento que en la vida vivire
Entiendo que te fueras y ahora pago mi condena pero no me pidas que quiera vivir
Sin tu luna, sin tu sol, sin tu dulce locura, me vuelvo pequeña y menuda
la noche te sueña y se burla, te intento abrazar y te escudas
Vendo una camara que sabe que captaba la mirada que en la vida grabare
vendo dos entradas caducadas que eran de segunda fila que en la vida rompere
vendo dos butacas reservadas hace siglos y ahora caigo que en la vida me sente
vendo hasta el cartel donde se anuncia el estreno del momento que en la vida vivire
Entiendo que te fueras y ahora pago mi condena pero no me pidas que quiera vivir
Sin tu luna, sin tu sol, sin tu dulce locura, me vuelvo pequeña y menuda
la noche te sueña y se burla, te intento abrazar
Sin tu luna, sin tu sol, sin tu dulce locura, llorando como un dia de lluvia
mi alma despega y te busca en un viaje que no vuelve nunca
Sentire, cada noche al buscar a tu humo en mi tejado
el recuerdo de un abrazo que aun me hace tiritar
Sin tu luna, sin tu sol, sin tu dulce locura, me vuelvo pequeña y menuda
la noche te sueña y se burla, te intento abrazar
Sin tu luna, sin tu sol, sin tu dulce locura, llorando como un dia de lluvia
mi alma despega y te busca en un viaje que nunca volvera
Another of my favorite songs by La Oreja De Van Gogh. I can't stop listening to it so I decided to post the lyrics, for lyke... um... no reason? >w<
It's 7:4oam. I just ate and I'm really bored. I am the only one in the house since my brother went out with my granny and my mother's at work. Yay for being bored. D:
I am really upset! Wanna know why?! Well... I am... getting... shorter. =[ See, I used to be 5'7 and now I am ... 5'6 with... shoes on! Not... cool! D< God! My best friend Coral, she's like 5'5 and we're about the same height! No fair! D: I think I might aswell give up on my dream of becoming a top model, because what I like the most about modeling is doing runway, and with my height, the possibilities of me ever being able to do it aren't many. I would probably just do beauty, and lyke... I don't like the idea of only being "good" for one thing. gonk So... buh bai dream. I am putting you in a bottle and throwing you in the ocean for someone else to find. >.<
I miss my friends a lot. I haven't seen Coral in a while, and last night I promised to call her and I never did, so Kory, if you're reading this thing, know that I am sorry and that I miss you a lot. <3 I think I am ready to tell you certain things I hadn't before too. Sorry is taking me so long to trust you or anybody else.
There is this guy. His name's Ernie and he is one of my gay "friends." I have been avoiding him for about... 2 weeks now and I think he is starting to notice that something's wrong. I don't want to be rude to him or anything. I don't want to make him feel bad, but he won't even let me breathe! I need my space! I can't spend ALL my ******** day with him and be always at his house and blah blah. I have other things to do that to me are way more important that sitting down on his couch, watching him play video games. gonk
I used to have a friend. Her name's Liliana, but lately I've been feeling like... we're simply not friends anymore. Whenever I call her, just to make sure she's still alive, she starts bitching and tells me she has to go 'cause she's on the phone with someone else and doesn't really have time for me. I've known her for a bit over 12 years and we've been friends for lyke... 1o of those 12, and it does hurt me a little bit that she's being like that, but I'll live, I guess. D:
Blah blah blah. Umm... bai. D: I'm tired so I... am going back to bed, haha. >w<
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