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	poem perfect feb 08 Good morning beautiful its a new day I open my eyes with nothing to say I hope you slept well and drempt of me Cuz when I colsed my eyes its you i see Your my first thought in the morning it'd seem And my last thought right before I Dream When I am around you I dont know what to say In all my life I've never felt this way I love your laugh i lover your smile I love your voice i love your style The way you breath the way you blink The way you read the way you think Things I've been told ******** what I've heard Your perfect in every aspect of the word

Posted by: Squeeker-Toy Thu Mar 05, 2009 @ 09:41pm

	poem pain and torment 08 I once was happy now Im alone But I'de rather that then to have never known And every moment we have spent Was worth the pain and torment I refuse now to lose someone dear That in most is my bigest fear But no one even seems to care Its like theres no one ever there Just give me a chance let me explain Whats going on is driving me insane Its been too long the words dont come This situation just makes me so numb You said you cared was that a lie? Are you too wishing that I'de die? How do I know how you feel If you cant tell me what is real How can I change what I cant see Give me a chance just talk to me

Posted by: Squeeker-Toy Thu Mar 05, 2009 @ 09:40pm

	poem driving me insane 08 Every breath I take is full of pain And seeing you drives me insane When you breath I can not speak And your touch it makes me weak And when you speak I see only you As if nothing else I ever knew When I dream its her I see In that vision it sets me free And the past few weeks its all a blur I close my eyes and see only her Just as now my wounds they heal You opened more for me to feel And nothing more to stop it noise Silence now what it destroys My hearts gone cold My legs gone numb Pensive now but no thoughts come I have made my mind and I am done From you now I will not run And feelings aside not worth my love Hate, Spite, Care, regret All of thee above

Posted by: Squeeker-Toy Thu Mar 05, 2009 @ 09:37pm

	Poem Jagged Knife 08 Palms sweating heart racing I think shes gonna die Her chest tightens gasping for air she begins to cry Recurring visions cloud her tortured mind Relief from this she could never find Slowly her vision begins to blur Every thought she had thinking of her Her broken heart she could not mend She tryed so hard just to make it end The pain so intense she can hardly stand Tightly grasping the barrel in her hand Losing conciousness she begins to fall Mad at the world she wants to forget it all But tears of the memory fill her eyes She regains conciousness to my surprise Trying now to numb the pain A jagged knife right through her vein With out a flinch she begins to bleed Into death and now shes freed

Posted by: Squeeker-Toy Thu Mar 05, 2009 @ 09:34pm

	poem mar 2 2008 Enternal Scar cry End it now so I can not feel The eternal scar that will not heal I gave you my love and I gave you my heart You spit on both and ripped them apart I was true to you I never lied To save our love you never tried Everyday I wish the pain to end To realize now were only friends And when i see you part of me dies and inside my heart my lonlyness crys Each night I sleep I dream of you Untill i wake and see where through And though i try i cant erase The past we had I've come to face Forever and Always i will love you Even after all that you've put me through

Posted by: Squeeker-Toy Thu Mar 05, 2009 @ 09:32pm

	poem mar 3 2008 True Feelings Within My Soul Hopefully she can be More than just a friend to me She makes me feel what I've never felt Now folding every hand I've been delt Praying for something new Hoping today for someone like you Emptyness now is all I feel inside Look for another to confide My true feelings within my soul Left there now an empty hole Black as night and cold as ice To end it now my sacrafice In my mind I can see A girl so perfect-my lock and key But in my heart it is not true That there is not another more perfect than you And seeing now I've been so blind Not to see what I cant find My beating heart in scilence stilled And in your presence my heart is filled But wanting what is out of range That one person who will not change My perspective of life on the mend Shes by my side with me till the end cry

Posted by: Squeeker-Toy Thu Mar 05, 2009 @ 09:29pm

	pics of me and my fiance :D our hands razz - Him- black light o:- Him and my Nephew[he would be a wonderful daddy]- ME biggrin - one of my tattos- Very old[my boobs are bigger now razz ]- still old- Lesbian pic..very very old biggrin - Older still- I WILL UPDATE WHEN I TAKE NEWER PICS XP

Posted by: Squeeker-Toy Thu Mar 05, 2009 @ 09:19pm

	Art :D..wants more

Posted by: Squeeker-Toy Thu Mar 05, 2009 @ 09:08pm

	This is how i would love my life to be.. without my ******** family twisted If I could have it my way..I would live in a quaint little cottage with a red door..somewhere in the mountains or by the sea. I would wear a sundress most of the time.. and I would sit under the giant tree with my tire swing. I would write short poems and play guitar in the sunlight. Down by my little brook, I would read and get lost for hours in my books. My garden would be filled with sweet things..and my time spent in that little patch of heaven, would mostly consist of watching the hummingbirds visit and picking flowers to place in my hair. If I could have it my way..you would be my boy..and I would be your girl. This would be ours..and only ours. We wouldn't dare touch in public places like lovers do..our glances would be that of strangers..but the way my heart beats faster every time I see you..it will remind me that it is all yours for the taking. Then most evidently..I will be attracted to you. We'd be best friends..but better. If I could have it my way..I could stay up with the quiet..until the sunrises..while drinking tea and watching old Disney cartoons. The day would start when I wake up..and I would never worry about sleep because I would have no where to go, nothing to do, and no one to be. My few friends [whom I love and care about dearly] would be with me almost all of the time. There would always be someone to talk to. I wouldn't grow each day to eventually live the typical lifestyle. Graduating, college, marriage, kids, work..a routine for any living individual. Somehow..I would make a life for myself where I would be sublimely happy..in a completely different way than the rest of the world. I might not make a lot of money, but I would be able to do anything I want..say anything that I want..and no one would tell me not to. FOREVER AND EVER BABY [[*~7-27-08~*]]

Posted by: Squeeker-Toy Thu Mar 05, 2009 @ 09:04pm

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