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If you really want to know why I act like an a*****e sometimes check out your attitude maybe I picked it up from you ,or is it because of my changing mood because of the changing dudes that saying the same words ringing in my head. Thoughts coming and going all of them sayed. Yea I heared speak your mind but next time could you rewind and speak in your mind. Because this time or next time could be your last time or my last time to say or speak to me the picture that your painting me. Oh yes I can see how you are so clearly the a*****e you think of me. You don't really see how i'm thinking see ,but you still shrill laugh and thrill about the way i'm looking like hurting my feelings not out of spite. Yet you continue on and on me wondering how im taking this. When I'm going to explode wondering if I should expose those feelings I kept inside so long ago ,yet I know if I try what the actions would be agianst people hating me more than they do already. So if your reading this please understand me. Now to the people wondering why I try to act mean well if you back the ******** off then it wont seem that way today or any other day so stop and try that before you say.....

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I haven't posted since my modem and router messed up so here it goes.

Why dose it seem

that reality is showing its face

Why dose it seem

That it takes me a while to understand the simplest of things.

Why never trusting

Why always hurting

Why thinking

Why dreaming

Why seeing but not beliveing

That you are gone

Yet I know you are

I know that you will never come back to me

I keep on thinking you will

When I know you won't

I have someone better

I realize now

What I have become

Only a shell looking for a purpose

That Purpose I have found

What a purpose it is.

So sweet and beautiful she is.

Yet I messed up once

and I finally am on the right track

May I forever more say this one last time

I cannot keep my soul tied to you may I lose my memories of that summer

.....Not long ago

ok let me make this short I'm doing everything over in gaia changing my user name and well changing my profile. and I'll try to get addicted to myspace but well see how that goes.

I love writing poems If you hate guys who write poems then I love you too ^_^.


I walk in darkness after seeing you with him confused dazed I am wondering if it was me at fault if I did something wrong or If I never did anything at all. Lost I was at what happend to you, everything fell apart you left me I only have sweet memories who's life is dwindling forever never to returen only when death calls do I see you then you say I love you but I do not belive it what you say is that what you truely are am I truely blind. Stupid I will be forever never being able to see what I want to people clouding my visions dreams wondering if I will ever beable to wondering if I will be able to see you again. Never I think as the darkness is growing stronger trying to fight it only to go weak and the curl up in a ball and cry as the darkness takes over me and as I have nothing else but memories memories of you in the summer.

If you have notice I wasn't on last friday then you either are bored or have another reason what ever it maybe. If you really want to know where I was. I was just at my friends party. For a whole day no but for most of it yes. Welll thats as far as I will go seeing posting this in the first place is becoming weird and creepy. And disturbing among other things.

As some of you know I'm a gamer and one of those games I love to use to relase stress is GUNZ. You want to know three reasons why. 1. I get to kill people 2. It's vulgar fun 3. You can commit virtual suicide.

and 4. Im Taraqs on Na GUnz Im in the Clan AfterLife and WE OWN 0_o

It seems that everything was a dream it seems that only things that are not dreams become them and that everything before them is nothing but a dream a dream of love and happiness. I have a dream whats yours?

I SLEPT AND I MISSED THE CELEBRATION xd Well theres allways next year.