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ok so it started with my g/f going to the emergency room for something n her brain. And sense she has no health insurance so she can not go back. She was in the emergency room for 9 hours. But i could not go see her because I had to finish coaching our travel team.

Then I found out that my grandmothers best friend died, who was like a friend to me. So it was like losing a very close Aunt. Who died the same day my g/f went into the hospital.

And to add to that my relationship is falling a part. All we do is think that each other does not want to be with each other. And all we do is fight. And we can not figure out how to fix it. crying i don't want to lose her cuz i love her so damn much!!! And she asked me to marry her about 5 months ago and i said yes.... and our one year is coming up...>.<

And to add to that, my 'friends' from HS have replaced me in there lives with some one else because i had to move a hour and a half away. and because of that they can not come and see me. No that is to much hassle. And i have done SO much for them. I have taken care of the HUNDREDS of time when they are so drunk they can not see straight. they took care of me kinda once.

I have dropped everything to be there before and now i am tired of making the effort. And they were my only friends that i could hang out with so now i have no friends to hang with which sux...

My life sux's right now...


WHY!!!!

but i am trying to get through it and my sister is helping a lot.. I LOVE YOU AMBIE!!!!!