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I can't believe August is ending. Really August? REALLY?! So soon?!?
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I don't want summer to end. It's been an incredibly hard time of my life, but I've also done more in this summer than I did during 14 years with my husband and reconnected with tons of friends.
Went camping, rafting, danced the night away, had a water balloon fight with a BBQ full of strangers and their kids and went to a bachelorette party that saw me pass out on at least two occasions... in the same night.

I guess this year I'm going to have to learn how to snowboard in order to have a fun winter activity to look forward to!

So, yesterday on my way to work, my truck died in the middle of the street. Turns out it was only a fuse, and I managed to get to work with three minutes to spare. Then I dropped a huge stack of ramekins in the middle of the dining room-- my 3rd time doing so. After that, I got a talking to from my boss because apparently I am not fast enough. (This is a job that I regularly break a sweat at, by the way.) and a warning that if I don't speed it up in the next week, she's going to let me go.

Then today I got sick of staring at that grimacing smiley face balloon that Jason left for me earlier this week and decided to let it go. Threw it out the window and watched it bob away... It got as far as the next house over, wrapped itself around their freakin' telephone wire and is now in plain sight, grinning at me from the next house over.
I'll never be rid of the damned thing now.
I'm off to work in five minutes and only got about 5 hours of sleep. Need to figure out how to bust a** when I feel like I could keel over just typing this journal entry.

I'm going rafting this Sunday though! So HUZZAH! Hopefully my luck won't cause all of us to hit a random polar bear and die a spectacularly watery death.
Heh.

You bear a smirk-
That mocks my hurt
The man who brought you-
Is lower than dirt
But you cannot see-
And neither, he
That a broken heart-
Does not easily agree
And your sneer only serves-
To taunt my agony.

So upon your string-
I attach this note
With a heavy heart-
And the stubborn hope
That my resolve alone-
Will keep me afloat
And that one of these days-
I'll be stronger, and cope.

So, it's been three months. Almost four. I'm still dealing with things, but life has taken some rather interesting turns. I haven't been on Gaia very often, even just getting on the internet is work sometimes.
I actually got drawn back to Gaia today because I got an email saying that I had three new PM's, all from people curious about when they can get a Kitter Kat. I'm flattered that even after all this time, people are still interested in my little pixel kitties!
I'm really not sure what to do about Kitter Katz to be honest. They're my "babies", so I don't want to sell the shop, but I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to officially reopen it.
With everything I've been through, I've come to realize that I need to spend my time trying to make real world money. I got a job working 2 days a week, but it's barely paying for my bad habits + food.
Not to mention that living with my Mother is not exactly ideal... I'd really love to find my own place.

Anyhoo, not much is new in Miraland aside from that. I went to an amazing rooftop party on Friday though, met lots of cool people, got hit on by drunken guys (and a couple of girls), danced my legs to jelly and had a great time.
In fact I'm still recovering. wink
But it's a new week, so it's back to looking for work and taking care of my mental health.

I hope everyone else has been doing well, feel free to shoot me a PM any time, I'll try to check back more often.

Hi everyone! New update. It's been over a month since I left What's-his-face and I have news to share.

First of all, I have my internet back!
Wooo!
*Throws confetti and performs a really terrible version of the Running Man*

Secondly, I lost ten pounds. eek I'm a bit frustrated over the fact since now I'm (according to Wii Fit), underweight. And man, I look WEIRD. Not to mention none of my clothes fit any more.
Working on that one.

Thirdly, I found out that boys think I'm pretty.
eek eek

Also, I made two new girl friends!
As it turns out, girls are crazy... and awesome.

Lastly, I sang karaoke last Wednesday! Fiona Apple's "Limp". Granted, it was only me and two friends actually in the room but I defeated my fear of singing in front of people that I know!
lol

I've also realized that if I can't be happy, it's a lot easier for me to fake it than to bring everyone else down around me. There are too many unhappy people in this city as it is.

Hi everyone! New update. It's been over a month since I left What's-his-face and I have news to share.

First of all, I have my internet back!
Wooo!
*Throws confetti and performs a really terrible version of the Running Man*

Secondly, I lost ten pounds. eek I'm a bit frustrated over the fact since now I'm (according to Wii Fit), underweight. And man, I look WEIRD. Not to mention none of my clothes fit any more.
Working on that one.

Thirdly, I found out that boys think I'm pretty.
eek eek

Also, I made two new girl friends!
As it turns out, girls are crazy... and awesome.

Lastly, I sang karaoke last Wednesday! Fiona Apple's "Limp". Granted, it was only me and two friends actually in the room but I defeated my fear of singing in front of people that I know!
lol

I've also realized that if I can't be happy, it's a lot easier for me to fake it than to bring everyone else down around me. There are too many unhappy people in this city as it is.

Yep. Cheesy as it sounds, the subject heading is a pretty good description of how I'm feeling lately. It's been nearly a month since I left Jason and I don't feel like I'm getting any better at dealing with this betrayal.
I realize I haven't actually described what said betrayal entails, but it's just one of those things that is hard to put out for public consumption. At times it's difficult for me to even admit it to myself.
Suffice to say two of the people I loved and trusted most in this world turned out to be traitors... who lied to me for six years.
So I'm basically a flippin' shell of a person lately.
I am, however, getting a little more used to bluffing my way through social situations.
Heh.

Because I basically have to steal wireless internet to get online (which is in no way reliable fyi), my connection is slow and it's difficult for me to post on Gaia. So for the time being, until I can afford wifi of my own, I'll have to settle for posting in my journal.

I hope you all are doing well and taking care. As always, tackle glomps and luffs to everyone.
-Mira

Well, just when I thought life was running at a good clip, I got hit with crazy jerry springer drama.
I'm moving, and just wanted to let everyone know that I'm going to be losing internet, or at the very least sporadic.

So, a looo~ooooong time ago, I was chatting with some of you about how much fun I was having with this new coloring style for the Steamworks pet I was coloring.
And today, I've finally finished her! She's all certed up and everything, so I thought I would share.
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I think my favorite part is the old-fangled watch waggling around above her hat. I imagine it bounces jauntily whenever she takes a step.
mrgreen

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