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So, I haven't posted anything for almost 11yrs...
I guess, maybe it's time to? ninja

* Life is messed up ( But isn't that normal for everyone?)
* I have a laptop, so I now have a working computer.
- I can go on to research, communicate, and try to socialize and game with friends.
- I didn't have a full, working computer until 2021. So, I was somewhat dead online.
* My family hates me for standing up against the abuse/Domestic Violence from my father.
- Being safe is better than being dead.
* My Mom died from her cancer in 2014
* Constantly fighting to keep my seizure medicines covered by insurance. ( I have to do it, again, for the 6th time, as of 2024)
- Only 3 meds, 1 emergency and 2 daily seizure meds have been covered, which is NOT good for me. I'll drop to the floor if the other 2 are not covered. Yay, 2024 problems.
- I am NOT in the mood to have ANOTHER brain surgery done, to try again to stop all seizures from happening and then go through 7+ years of losing my memory and rehabilitations, this time with NO family support. But, then again, I didn't fully have support back then. I only had my Mom, but my Mom is dead now.
* Fighting to keep a roof over my head and not become homeless, in court.
* My cat, Yahtzee, died in 2015. Age of 21.
* My bird, Lily, passed away in 2020.
* I have 7 birds, all are almost at least 10yrs old.
* I have 3 cats, 2 are almost 10yrs old now.
* I haven't been on Gaia for a long time.
* My health is poor, with the newest problem being a fractured spine. Yay.
* My skills with drawing are very high now, as I take out my frustration on life with drawing.
* I have different coping mechanisms
- Game; pc, nintendo switch and nintendo 3ds, draw, listen to music, lay down, sleep, walking (I can't right now, I'm in a back brace and have a walker), and try to talk to my friends ( but I'm usually too depressed to, an I feel incredibly horrible that my friends do not hear from me.)

I don't know what to write, right now. But, these are the only things I can think of right now.