On the 25th my step father and I had gone to a gas station to get cigarettes and drinks and at the counter there was a really cute boy working. He had the most beautiful eyes. They were so gentle and a gorgeous shade of blue.
If I hadn't looked like s**t at the time I would've flirted my a** off and tried to get his number.
Now I'm regretting not going for it because that night I had a very vivid dream about going back to the gas station but for some reason the doors wouldn't open though he was in there.
For some reason I can't get over his eyes. He looked so kind and caring all in just his eyes alone but I haven't been able to go back because I don't have my license and no one I know has gas.
I know this dream was important though and won't go away because of the problems I have with being confident with myself. I've never been able to approach a guy and he seemed so amazing but this dream came to me to tell me that I need to just take control and trust my impulses no matter what. That is how I am finally going to be able to break the shy part of me that keeps me away from finding someone to call my own.
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