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Yea, i said it. So what?

What r u gunna do to me? Flame me for being emo? Ha!

I have one thing to say to you if u do. You have no life.

Seriously, who spends their time going around flaming people for being emo. I mean come on, if you hate emo people because they want to kill themselves, then why do you drive them to it more by flaming them? You're a heartless freak if you do, and you should feel ashamed of yourself.

Also, i'd like to clear up something. Not all emo people like to kill and cut themselves. Yea, your eyes do not decieve you. "But, then they aren't emo anymore, right?" Wrong. To be emo doesn't mean you cut yourself. It means you have issues and you want to bottle them up, or be a non conformist emo and share your feelings with the world! Haha, take that Anti-Emo Faction! (lol, its funny im part of a faction that has a member who started that)

Anyways, i'm being emo. Yea, i have issues and i like to tell you guys about them whenever they come up. And you listen to me!!! I mean, you've already read to this point and haven't destroyed your screen in hatred, so that must mean you're listening to me. So if you hate emo people, but read my journal every time i post, your a hypocrite and should die.

With all that said, i think its time for me to get to my point (I love super explaining myself before hand). I'm having some rough times right now. I'm going through a social issues, which i rather not get into detail about, for the people it involve read this occasionally. I really don't know what i want to do with my life. O, and anti-everything adds tell me that all i believe in is false. So to me right now, this world suxs balls.

BUT!!!!!

Im not going to cut myself over it. Nor will i cry myself to sleep tonight. No, i will tell you about it in my journal. You see, a friend of mine told me how she was once having a really emo day and just wrote out her feelings in a notebook. So i took that idea, and i wrote this. It works too, for all of you wondering. I feel alot better after i get most of the stuff off of my chest.

So yea, back to my anti-Vlad life. I really dont know where im going anymore. My life has come to a point where everywhere i look is darkness. I can't see my nose in front of me its so dark, and you know what? It scares me. Im afraid of not knowing what im doing. I hate the fact that i have no plans for the rest of my life, even though i knida know what i want to do. I'm given a couple roads to choose from, but im not sure if i like what i can see down any of them. I dont know whats gunna happen to me. I dont know if im gunna go to a college i want. Nor do i know if the love of my life still loves me... My life is slowly falling into chaos...

I need help.

-Vlad