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Why...?

Why is the sky always blue in broad daylight...
Even though its covered with dark clouds around?

How...?
How will the world be in the future with in a billion years?
Will there even be humans around?

What...?
What is life...?
What is the main purpose for it?

Who...?
Who's willing to survive though out life?
Physical and emotionally?

Where...?
Where is everyone?
In fact, where am I now?

When...?
When did I even started to think this far?
So much thinking that it would put me though all this?

Why....?
Why did I change?
Since when did that happen?

How...?
How did I change?
How could I?

What...?
What happened to me?
What did I do wrong?

Who...?
Who is there as my support?
Who..? No one right? Thats what I thought.

Where...?
Where am I?
All I know is that I'm not in my home sweet home...

When...?
When am I going home...?
When am I going to be true...?

Am I going to have to wait?
How long?
When will it be my turn...?
What will be there for me?
Who will be there?
Where will I be?
Will I be back home?
Why am I thinking so much?
Asking so many questions...?

Why is the world existing if God knows that we humans are corrupted?
Thats right... there is no god.
So are we made?
How did we even corrupt ourself?

Who am I now....?

When she walks away from you mad

[ Follow her ]

When she stare's at your mouth

[ Kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit's you

[ Grab her and dont let go ]

When she start's cursing at you

[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]

When she's quiet

[ Ask her whats wrong ]

When she ignore's you

[ Give her your attention ]

When she pull's away

[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst

[ Tell her she's beautiful ]

When you see her start crying

[Just hold her and dont say a word ]

When she's scared

[ Protect her ]

When she lay's her head on your shoulder

[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]

When she steal's your favorite shirt

[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]

When she tease's you

[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesnt answer for a long time

[ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she say's that she love's you

[ she really does more than you could understand ]

When she grab's at your hands

[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]

When she bump's into you

[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tell's you a secret

[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes

[ dont look away until she does ]

When she misses you

[ she's hurting inside ]

When you break her heart

[ the pain never really goes away ]

When she says its over

[ she still wants you to be hers ]

When she repost this bulletin

[ she wants you to read it ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

- Tease her and let her tease you back.

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes.

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

- Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain.

- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;

"Who's a** am I kicking babe?"

Usually crying.

Usually confused.

Trying to clear all thoughts.

Nothing worked.

Drums in my head.

Resisting the pain.

Getting dizzy.

Cant stop thinking.

Why is everything so confusing?

I'm so lost.

Even in my own world.

I dont know anything right no more.

Dont even know myself no more.

Isnt anyone going to try and find me?

Will some body come take me home?

.....

I guess not....

Blood

Rushing in my veins.

No more.

Chest

Ached and throbbed with pain.

As if an imaginary arrow of cupid's evil twin

Drilled in it with slow pain.

It felt like it touched my lively heart.

It felt like it was real.

Though I'm not dead.

Still able to move a live.

Just felt like a used doll.

Although a part of me was missing.

Wanting to be able to feel alive

Once agian.

I'd be more than happy.

~+~

Cold.

Dark.

Annoyed.

Despair.

Hatred.

Sadness.

Sorrow.

. . .Broken. . .

"Stay strong." I say.

"Stay alive."

"Carry on."

Then again, how could I?

Torn into peices.

Scared my life.

Scared me.

Wanting to be resurected.

Broken.

On my birthday.

My 15th.

But I was wrong.

To believe that he would come.

To believe that I would feel his embrace.

To believe that I would see him smile.

To believe that I would see him well.

He choose not to come.

He choose to hurt me.

He choose to have my happiness into shreds.

I was a fool to even think that he would come.

He didnt even say the answer.

He didnt even explain.

Instead, he text me with a false message.

"Vicky. Happy Birthday! Daddy loves you."

Lies....

Yea. I finally made a journal entry that saves all my art just in case my computer goes crashing down and stuff. DX DON'T STEAL. D<
If I find out that you stole from my stash, your going to pay. Big time.
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By Velvet ninja and Leather baby


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