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It doesn't look like it matters about the whole "ex" thing.
He decided to get back with his fiance. Good luck to him. As long as he knows what he is doing.
 Rockstar_Clay-Ton · Thu Oct 16, 2008 @ 08:39pm · 1 Comments |
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So it's been a bit of a confusing day for me. I don't really understand why i took some things to heart. But i did. And i guess it's part of the past now right?
So, i think i'm starting to fall BACK inlove with my ex (mr. bj). It sounds stupid and pathetic, but since he broke up with his fiance, i seem to be interested in him again. Hence why i got confused today. He told me his ex and his ex's friends were harrassing him, and that he told them to "eff off", and that he was happy.
But then he said he's ex called and he was all upset and shiz-nit (only cause they broke up a while ago), and he doesn't know if he should talk to him.
I guess it was at that point i thought, "DUDE!!! (refering to me), your making fool of yourself, AGAIN. WHY ARE YOU LETTING YOURSELF GET LIKE THIS"
I just told him, "You do what you think is right smile " and i left it at that.
And i'm at that point where you just want to spend some time away from everything, especially when all this college work, normal work, family stress. I even thought about spending time away from the net, but i dont think it will help in this situation because, sadly enough, he can easily call me.
And running away from the problem doesn't solve anything does it?
So i'm thinking, as of TOMORROW, i shall not focus on the things around me, rather, focus on the things infront of me. The things i need to do. There is only 7 more weeks of college, and i need to make sure everything is done. I want to get my marks for uni.
I guess it doesn't help when you got a major english test that was JUST MARKED BY YOUR TEACHER and being sent to a panel for verification. I, myself, know that i completely failed that exam, and i never felt so emotional over an exam before. I guess it's because i put so much faith into it, and to realise in the exam, that it was difficult to put points across. I just felt so sad. It's lame, yes yes. BUT still sad
Anyhoo, enough from me. It's not like any one is gonna read this anyhoo.
Just better in then out.
Rockstar_Clay-Ton · Mon Oct 13, 2008 @ 10:42am · 1 Comments |
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