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Nothing I do is right anymore...
i try and be the best i can yet i still manage to ******** things up!!!!
My best friends pissed at me for some reason and idk y, my ex is really pissed at me and my parents are too, why do i keep ******** things up?

hot muscles

Is happy right now to be living!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
*dances round*

I know it might sound wierd and all but i fell like in anything i do i always fail and hell even my own family makes fun of me but thats okay i guess.... i mean i'm used to it by now

All my life I have been searching for something. For some one. And now that I have found him I can't help but fall to my knees knowing we will never be together. Knowing that fate is that which kills me. To have called him mine but to never kiss his lips, to never hold him close, not even to talk face to face with the man I love. Thats what hurts, Thats what makes me cry. He calls me up just to say baby everything will be just fine in no time. but I know thats not true.

All I want to do is lay there next to you.
My head on your chest counting every heart beat.
All I want to do is look in to your eyes.
My lips speaking the words my heart tells them to.
All I want to do is every thing I can't.
My soul cries for your return.

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not ********
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)