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tivaelydoc
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I just simply dont feel.
POEM#005

i dont feel depressed because that would imply there is something that mades me happy. what once made me happy, what i thought was happyness, is just a illusion to pass time. time didnt exist in that zone.
i dont feel like im in a abyss or void because there is no darkness in my life. i know why everything exists and how and if i don't, then i learn. and if its wrong, i dont care because it makes sence it my head.
i dont feel suicidal because i dont feel there is a difference from being alive or dead. the only thing that makes me alive now is the fact that im breathing.
i dont feel connected this world, to this life, to religion, to anything that even the most articulate mind could conjure because im not part of this temperary existance.
i dont feel nothingness because that would imply that there once was something.
i dont feel alone because i never had anyone. parents only love because you are their kid. selfish bastards. friends never last and possesions are never satisfying enough.
i dont feel hollow because that would imply that there is something containing my emptiness.
i dont feel hate because there is no gratification.
i dont feel unique because i have nothing more then anyone else.
i dont feel crazy because what's normal in this world.
i dont feel that words can explain how i feel because
i just simply dont feel.





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My painting.
POEM#006

i am a black and white painting
crucified to the wall
"paint me!" "paint me!". I bellow.
as the onlookers look back in appall.
"i want to be in color!". I echo
as it vanishes into nihility.
no response. never a response
from any community
and eventually that black and white painting
fades away.
and onlookers have no idea what
that black and white was that day.



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Love.
POEM#003

I love her
there is only one
she is pretty
ravishing
graceful
even pulchritudinous
no imperfections
immaculate
shapely divine
fair and pretty are insults to her,
to her statuesque and splendiferous form
her voice is even aesthetical
the way she walks is delightful
the way she speaks is so peaceful
her gaze is ever so blissful
her courage is zestful
her smile is genuine and sincere
her face twinkles like the sky
her skin is unctuous
her breath is genial
the way she judges is respectable
her essence is warmhearted
her vivacious ebullience is from her abundance of affection
her devotion is unparalleled
her laugh brings out ardency
her amity is benevolent
her intelligence is profound
her gratification is rather gleeful
her stance is coruscating
her posture is scintillating
the way she listens is unfeigned and tender
all the way to her skin growth
is resplendent
she breathes amorously
her upbeat intoxicated mood,
no matter what grim circumstances,
is always chirpy
joyful
jubilant
exuberant
causing anyone to become lively and mirthful with her
nothing can alter her convivial hearty passionate attitude
nothing can diminish her elated, exultant, and cordial feelings
all around she is facund
she is fully beautified
anymore additions to her magnificently fabricated figure
and eyes would explode
anymore annexations to her pleasant aroma
and ears would collapse
it is clearly unconceivable if she could blossom any more
since her voice is comely
glamorous
charming
precious
one does not have to be sensuous to see the picturesqueness of this lady
she is well mellifluous and eloquent and euphonious and dulcet
causing felicitous captivation and cheerfullness in all our hearts
altogether harmonious
a singular quaint sweetheart
whose existence is but once in a lifetime
her determination and endurance know no bounds
she is the princess of aesthetics
the ambrosial queen enchantress
a goddess only comparable to Venus
more than exquisite
more than unique
and way past recherche
my dainty mincing twee ethereal empyrean
and this is still a blasphemy to my seraphic lover
she is cherubic
she is rapturous
she is beatific
and is still over amatorious
over passionate
over languishing
simple terms like sexy and hot
pay little homage to this girls exuberant extravagant existence
almost to point of salaciousness
lecherousness
lusciousness
coquettishness lasciviousness libidinousness lubriciousness
but alas!
this is unintentional for this radiant beauty
is too much for mere mortal morsels
just a scant touch of her
would cause the undefiled person to become prurient to this girl
her soul is crystalline
diaphanous
translucid
pellucid
the most flawless in His eyes
nothing can dilute her unadulterated spirit
this girl doesn't need to be flirtatious, titillating, or provocative
because her aura is very much redolent and lustrous and lambend
let alone incandescent fulgent luminous
all the way down to the simplest molecule is sparkling and splendid
she doesn't have to try to be dazzling and glistening
glinting in the darkest of atmospheres
her intentions are virtuous
unprofane
inculpable
she is so cuddly
adorable
endearing
the very name of her is almost orgasmic
she is not rare because she is exclusive
the secret to her elegance may be tenebrous
but her allure is most strikingly unmistakable
the living incarnation of a dream
she is true perfection
her true attractiveness is indescribable
a treasure the gods
her winsome charm is unmatched
she is sweeter then the purest sugar
she is cuter then a baby
gorgeous beyond belief
appealing to the most unsavory of humans
if she were a food
she would be the pinnacle of delectable scrumptious appetizing cuisine imaginable
she is reminiscent unwillfully
yes she might be aphrodisiacal but that does not make her risque
her presence is more welcoming then Elysium
one word to describe her would be scrumtralecent
she is my suave captivating darling
she is more then a angel to me
she is my everything.
she is ____.




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About me.
POEM#004

i am not simple, but not complex
i am not difficult, but not easy

i am not deceitful, but pretensions
i am not quick to forgive, but quick to learn
i am not passionate, but determined
i am not intelligent, but wise
i am not courageous, but fearless
i am not practical, but realistic
i am not imaginative, but creative
i am not contemporary, but avant-garde
i am not immaculate, but complete
i am not analytical, but philosophical
i am not indecent, but open-minded
I am not religious, but spiritual
i am not demanding, but expecting
i am not a product of my environment, but a product of my resources

i am i and only i
me is myself and no one else



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My love for you.
POEM#001


my love for you is more powerful then a hammer
as it hits the face with a bonecrushing clamor
with teeth an'bone intertwined in a bloody mess
my strong emotions for you will never recess

my love for you is more captivating at heart
as arm by arm is consciously sawed apart
then leg by leg, holding their last breath
my love for you will still stand long after death

my love for you is more intense then a chainsaw
as it brutally disembowels from waist t'jaw
but as viscera is strewn from wall to wall
my love for you will forever enthrall

my love is more spontaneous then death, undisputed
as what's left of the gory victim is executed
with the skull fragments and brains floating in blood
my eternal love will everlastingly flourish and bud

my love for you is like maggots to a corpse
as the flesh is eating away and the body warps
even as the prey continutes to be devoured
my love for you will remain unscoured

my love for you is more erotic then romance
as the the mangled corpse is ******** in every stance
with every severed wound used as a orrifice
my love towards you is always a reminisce

my love for you luscious then freshly cut meat
as the entire body is cooked, not one piece incomplete
and then a dinner that's worth of a feast
my love for you will never be decreased




 
 
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