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I'm saying this to be true....
If you're reading this, and you know who you are, I'm only speaking my heart. In all the time I’ve known you, from freshman year to now…I really care about you. I don’t want to sound creepy or anything, which is probably what you’re thinking I’m being right now, but I’m being completely serious, and I really am sorry for everything that I’ve put you through from the dances to the movies to the theme park all the way to everyday things at school. You’re such a good person, and an amazing friend. I can only imagine the kind of person you are. When you drive me home to dealing with me from day to stinkin day I appreciate it. All of it. When you ask me if I’m alright, when you hug me hi and bye, when you help me with school, when you drive me home, when you talk to me in and out of class. When we play cards at lunch, when you asked me to a dance…all of it, all of it leaves an impression on me. And even though you’ve told me you weren’t interested, you stayed my friend. One of my best guy friends…you’ve kept my secrets and others too…you know who I mean…you’ve always made my day a bearable one…you make me smile even when the clouds wont spare a ray of sun. We have our jokes like chocolate football to our trip with blue hamtaro to you know where *shakes head*, we’ve shared our moments like talking about the “jack black kiss” and “rainbow dash” not to mention “yo” and soo much more, all of it still in my head. When you drove me home from the movie with “jew fro” and “fire” when I told you a very crucial secret, before I told you though, you said something like, “The reason I said no the first time was because everyone was telling me the same thing you and “jew fro” were telling me about Momo.” It made me think about things…things I didn’t want to think about…I wanted to hope…I couldn’t help but hope that after our trip with the blue hamster you cared about me too, the way I cared about you. The way you acted, the way it felt when we were together, it felt like things were going right…after I had told you, you said maybe…now I think…does the first time differ from now? Is there anything different? Or am I just imagining the impossible? So as I said in your comments….I am sorry and tell me what you think…I don’t care how anymore…I just want to know…and if it’s bad…please don’t make it hard on me…