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Haven't used this for a long time. What better time to use it than now when it's 4AM?

I'm so jaded. Sometimes I read back on the first rendition of To The Farplane (TTF) and I miss it so much. We made quality posts even if it was painfully slow and most importantly.., everything felt organic. I think that's why I'm pissed. Because things don't feel organic anymore.

Time after time it feels like our characters are being forced into situations just so they can fit in with the plot. There are so many different elements in the roleplay that it doesn't even feel like FFX anymore. I have to admit, I'm part of the problem. I get pissed off waiting for people and skip them and leave them behind. Often times I just force my own characters in situations so I don't have to wait anymore, ha. But I also understand that we can't do anything about it. We've got school, work, and I'm sure a member of two out there has a family to take care of.

I want quality posts that feel organic.
But I also can't stand waiting for people to post.

You can't have your cake and eat it too... Or whatever the saying is.

I don't know. TTF is the only reason I come on Gaia anymore, even though I'm in a Hunger Games 1x1 too. After this I'm so done with Gaia. I want to finish this, but I want to enjoy it and so far I'm just forcing myself to post. Wait, no. I am actually, genuinely enjoying posting as Seymour. Go figure.

Back on the organically thing.
Prime example: When the summoners were captured and they tried to escape. That was nice. The way they were captured-- it didn't feel forced (even though they were).
Bad example: Besaid.

It stops after Besaid. And note to self-- make a new thread and when you do, give a s**t about leading. 'Cause right now I'm so ******** jaded with it. So much that I don't even use a post layout anymore, lolol. Hahaha.

If anyone's offended by this, please don't be! I just needed to vent.