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Ok, what the hell!!! I have had so many "views" on my journal entries and yet still only two f(_)cking comments. Hello, you've already wasted your damn time opening it up, just take a few more seconds to leave a damn comment. Even if it's a bad one! I want comments!!!!!!! scream F (_)CKERS!!!!!!!!!! stare

I got my head but my head is unraveling,
can't keep control can't keep track of where it's traveling.
I got my heart but my heart is no good.
You're the only one that's understood.

I come along, but I don't know where you're taking me.
I shouldn't go, but you reaching back and shaking me.
Turn off the sun pull the stars fom the sky.
The more I give to you the more I die,

and I want you... and I want you...and I want you

You are the perfect drug - the perfect drug - the perfect drug.
You are the perfect drug - the perfect drug - the perfect drug.

You make me hard, when i'm all soft inside.
I see the truth, when I'm all stupid-eyed.
The arrow goes straight throught my heart,
Without you everything just falls apart.
My blood just wants to say hello to you.
My fears want to get inside of you.
My soul is so afraid to realize,

and i want you... and I want you...and I want you

You are the perfect drug - the perfect drug - the perfect drug.
You are the perfect drug - the perfect drug - the perfect drug.
You are the perfect drug - the perfect drug - the perfect drug.
You are the perfect drug - the perfect drug - the perfect drug.

Take me with you, Take me with you,
without you, with out you everything just falls apart,
With out it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces.
without you, with out you everything just falls apart,
With out it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces.

It's not as much fun to pick up the pieces..


Take me with you, Take me with you,
without you, with out you everything just falls apart,
With out it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces.
without you, with out you everything just falls apart,
With out it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces.


"Nine Inch Nails...The Perfect Drug"
A creepy way of showing my love for someone that slowly kills me everyday, but I can't live without. To Joshua... You are addictive, I could never go without you. You are my "Perfect drug".

I have only one more tear to cry,
It's not for him,
It's not for her.
I have one more tear to cry
and it's for my son.

He is the light while I'm awake,
He is the dreams in my slumber.
The cause of my happiness.
A reason for me to live.

I've cried for my mom,
and I've cried for my love.
I have no more tears to cry,
but this last one.

I have only one more tear to cry,
That tear is for my son.
For he is my world,
and he is my life.

I set my standards,
and he exceeded them.
He is perfect in my eyes,
and I am in his.

He makes me want to do better,
And conquer fears.
I just hope that I can return that favor,
Someday to him.

I have only one more tear to cry.
It will be different from all the rest,
because that tear will be for him.
And he is my son.

This poem is dedicated to Jaydin Tyler 11-25-06

oOFaded DreamsOo quiz ----- longest quiz....
left off 192 424 600 753 773 785 And gave up....I gave it a shot...can't complain.

Today was the first time poor Jaydin has been sick. cry I think he caught a bug that just about everyone in the house had. It's really so sad to see your own child sick and not be able to do much to help him. sad Well he seems like he's been doing a little better, he stopped throwing up and he's finally asleep. Poor baby. sad

Every time I change my avi I'll add it here!!! This way you can see all my wonderful (and scary biggrin ) sides.

Yeah it's 5:30 and I'm bored. I should be sleeping, however, my child will not let me. This sucks, there's nothing to do and I really reallllllly bored.
I'm gonna go around and just tag some random people.... *tag* i'm it!
If you read this tag me in my comment box and I'll find you and tag you back!!!
Told ya I was bored!

Ok so I wasn't sure if my son would grow up to like girls or boys...Which I wouldn't mind either way he's still my son. But it's confirmed at 2 months he's not gay....I was watching the un-sensored video for "crazy b***h" by buck cherry and he liked the girl boobs!!!!!!!!!!! He broke his neck trying to watch the half naked women dance....Yeah his daddy did too! But what can you do!!!