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the pepsi whore
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project: demolition lex, currently underway
I havn't been on gaia since monday of last week, something happened that kind of screwed me over.

so like, I got my laptop taken away

my sister left the house so I decided to check gaia out, but I didnt read any of my PM's or post in the pyp

like

I dont think I should

its doing more bad than good .

so pretty much I spent the week trying to destroy myself

but between that I managed to play some resident evil 4, pokemon, and I got to practice my singing and my guitar, I didnt have to go to school all week too, im going to school this week though

its a 4 day school week

and the its spring break

which is 8 days long

oh joy

8 more days to lay around my house on my own

because being alone all the time is so enjoyable





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self destruct mode, activated
all of a sudden I have started to hate myself

like alot

my self esteem continues to plumet

how pathetic and stuck up am I

people in the pyp are always complimenting me

but for some reason it just all stopped feeling real

if I was really all that great and awesome and good looking, why would I need to post stupid pictures of myself in my underwear on a thread.

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just for a few glorious moments of attention

to make me feel like im worth something </3

im not all that great

im not all that pretty

I hate everything about myself so much.

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I hate my skinny arms

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I hate the blank stupid expression thats always on my face.

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I hate my mediocre modeling and camera skills

sad

I just wish I honostly liked something about myself




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