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Axis' tossed thoughts
This is where those thoughts that shouldn't be said out loud go...I will have poetry, random thoughts, and...not so random thoughts...and whatever I damn well feel like...
this is me...
my life is music...I can't go an hour with-out something to listen to...otherwise, I get a headache...I want to become a colledge profesor on musical sociology, a study of how society influences music...I am very effeminate...I bead jewelry...I have worn flowers at school, but din't care...I am an idividualist...I do not easily bend to others' whims...unless I want to...I am a flirt...I see a girl, I flirt...I share my music with my friends, whether they like it or not...I love chemistry, and I'm a pyromaniac....I've stolen, Lied, and hurt people(not physically), I also Love life, and keep others from committing suicide...I've tried committing suicide(over a girl)...I am a zoroastrian at heart, but not in blood...I love cats, I love dogs...I wanna live in Hawaii...I wanna learn japanese...I am learning right now...I volunteer at the boys and girls club...I love it there...I hang out with kids, and teach them all day long...and I get to record my music there...I play too many instruments to count...I play guitar, and write music for it...I've recorded music too...I'm going to make a movie, and enter it into a pro film festival...I am a funny guy...I like to stay on the computer all day....I play paint ball like I've been playing my entire life, but I've only played twice...I have a huge family, and I don't even know half of them...it takes an entire public park for a family reunion...I am mostly italian and arabic...I am also gypsy, native american, and welsh...I love my italian and arabic heritage, and always try to learn more about them..
my favorite qoutes include "fortune favors the bold" and "belive nothing, no matter who said it, even if I have said it, unless it agrees with you and your own common sence"-buda...I love food...Itania, arabic(lol), seafood, cajun, asian, everything...I can use chopsticks like a chinese person(I was told by a chinese person)...I love horror movies and thrillers, but...I can't watch a single on alone...I am a rock...I am an Island.

Modern Love
Modern Love. It's cruel, silent, and unloving. Modern love is the absence thereof, and the want and need for separation.
What is marriage, but a symbol of love? If there is no love, there is no use for the marriage. Passion is love, yet none of that is not okay. Love is not dark, silent, and still, so why should the marriage bed of a newly-wed couple be the same deathly still and quiet of a tomb?
Severance is an escape, yet it is joy and longing. to wish for the death of a loved one, is to say, " I don't love you, so die." Divorce is unacceptable, yet murder is worse still. All tht can be left is the dreadfully venomous marriage that has no traditional love. Only the cold, unemotional love that is now.

random quiz
What would you do if:

[1] I committed suicide:
[2] I said I liked you:
[3] I kissed you:
[4] I lived next door to you:
[5] I started smoking:
[6] I stole something:
[7] I was hospitalized:
[8] I ran away from home:
[9] I got into a fight and you weren't there:

What do you think about my:

[1] Personality:
[2] Eyes:
[3] Face:
[4] Hair:
[5] Clothes:
[6] Mannerisms:


[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Emotionally, what stands out?
[11] Do you wish I was cooler?
[12] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[13] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[14] Am I loveable?
[15] How long have you known me?
[16] Describe me in one word.
[17] What was your first impression?
[18] Do you still think that way about me now?
[19] What do you think my weakness is?
[20] Do you think I'll get married?
[21] What about me makes you happy?
[22] What about me makes you sad?
[23] What reminds you of me?
[24] What's something you would change about me?
[25] How well do you know me?
[26] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[27] Do you think I would kill someone?
[28] Are we close?
[29] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

666 Is My Mark
Axis is a username. Axis is a user of KoL. KoL is online. Porn is online. Porn is evil. The Beast is evil. 666 is the mark of the Beast. Therefore, 666 is the mark of Axis. If I am Axis, 666 is my Mark.

Today, I spoke to a friend about death, and what's after. We contemplated this for a long while, and thought of many diferent thoughts and theories. There's a movie I saw last year, called the "Waking Life", and it really moved me. It was primarily about dreams, but it was more than just that. It was the journey of this guy through his dreams. He thinks he wakes up, but he finds himself in a dream. And each dream is about dreams, death, or both. There's a theory, a person suggests in bed with his girlfriend, that his entire life might be a hallucination brought on upon by his subconscious mind, in the event of his death/near death. There have been studies that show that the human mind can creat many things, elaborate things when under strong duress. In fact, the mind has been shown to create long, elaborate dreams, even when it's not under stress.

Death is an interesting topic, and my friend and I both agree that, given the chance, we would comit suicide if we could come back...just to see what it's like...

I know my first post is rather dark, but my posts will range from "dark" to "very light-hearted"...just stay tuned...

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